In my last post I mentioned a boy named Travis...actually, I said this: "Thanks to Travis for being my first love. I waited for you to come back. And when you did it was like a fairytale. Then you broke my heart. I was crushed. BUT IT GOT WORSE. You slept with Kristen the same night. Did I mention this was 4 days after my birthday. What a nice boy. -_- but I did learn not to trust boys who not only have a rep for sleeping around...but that just got out of jail. To others that's common sense. But I had to learn that all myself. I was young, I had no idea what I was getting myself into."

Well wanna know somthing ironic? Not only was he in jail AGAIN. But he just got out friday. FML dude. He texted me saturday. He wanted to see me. As much as I hate him for everything he did to me he told me he's trying to stay out of trouble. I started to believe him. Then he complimented me...I asked him if he was just trying to get in my pants and he assured me that that's not what he wanted. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Everyone needs a second chance. And for some reason I can never say no to him.

So today he was supposed to meet me at victorias so we could see eachother after almost a year... He never showed up. He didn't text back. He didn't answer my calls. I feel ditched. I feel forgotten. I feel dumb. He somehow has found another way to hurt me. I just can't deal with this. I'm NEVER gonna get over this kid. Even though I KNOW I should. I just can't. </3

Sometimes you have to see the good in the bad things that come into your life. Every cloud has a silver lining. It might seem like everything is falling apart now but when you look back on it all, you'll find that you grow from those kinds of things. You learn. If you didn't, you wouldn't be human. I'm here to prove that to you with a few exapmples.

-Thanks to Travis for being my first love. I waited for you to come back. And when you did it was like a fairytale. Then you broke my heart. I was crushed. BUT IT GOT WORSE. You slept with Kristen the same night. Did I mention this was 4 days after my birthday. What a nice boy. -_- but I did learn not to trust boys who not only have a rep for sleeping around...but that just got out of jail. To others that's common sense. But I had to learn that all myself. I was young, I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

-Thanks to Moe for being a TERRIBLE friend. I can't even remember all the times you ditched me and talked shit about me then acted like we were still
"best pals". I don't need people like you in my life. Karmas a bitch too. I was the "slut who hooked up with all your ex boyfriends". Well sweety, its hard not to when YOU DATED EVERY FUCKING BOY THAT WENT TO OUR SCHOOL. And look who's pregnant now. How cute. WHORE.

-Thanks dad. You weren't there for me my WHOLE life. Then you come back to town 15 years later and make my life an emotional rollercoaster. Even though I hated you for everything you've put me through I'm glad you're here now. I finally have a relationship with one of my parents.

-Thanks mom, you're the best. You showed me what I SHOULDN'T do with my life by doing it all yourself. My childhood was hell because of you. From the drugs, to the fights, to the prostitution...you destroyed me. I was a wreck. Now you're in prison and you deserved it. But I'm proud of you too. You're sober and you're now becoming the mother I always needed.

So I haven't been on here in FOREVER, literally. Not much has been going on. Jonas is in 2 weeks. SO SOON. I can't wait. And this past saturday I went to the Demi Lovato / David Archuleta / Jordan Pruitt show. AMAZING day. I met David, he was....nise-ish. His security wasn't. They ruined my night. but here's the picture of David & I.

I look SO nasty. but whatever. It was a mix of happiness and anger. if you were there you would know why. I really didn't look THAT gross.

I think I looked cute :D We left the house around 11am to try to find Demis hotel. We found it but my dad wouldn't let us stay because he believe the lady at the desk whe she said she wasn't staying there. When I knew she was. I mean there were a million cops there are this van outside with her face on it.

yeah, i knew she was there. haha. The we took Naylynn & Monica to TGI Fridays. My BEST Jonas friends. I lovveee those girls! THEN we finally went to the venue. I love Bank Atlantic Center! Its so big and pretty. The same place we met Nay & Monica in March of 2008.

The David M&G went pretty fast. We got in around 4:30 / 5:00 and it was fun until the ladt running it became a total biotch. I sat UNDER Davids keyboard. Pretty cool view ;D hahaha. And there was a chocolate fountain! So tight!

While we were stuffing our faces with free sweets we looks out these GIANT windows and saw how close we were to the buses. Literally right above them. There were about 20  girls down there. I guess waiting to meet someone. So we waved pretending to be Demi or whatever and they were ju,[ing and screaming and waving. It was so cute! But the stupid security wouldn't let us take a video.

After all that crazy David stuff we went to the actual show. My view was so good! and people were asking me where I got my pass like a million times. Ddue, I bought it haha. I met cynthia :D SO HAPPY. She's awesome. And so were her friends.

During Jordans set I cried. I didn't expect that one. It was my first time seeing her live. She is such a great performer! And she has such a powerful voice. I missed like 2 of Davids songs because I was in the hallway talking to Naylynn and Monica. During Demis set I got to go FRONT ROW. It was amazing! 

Oh and before I go, I have to meantion WARPED TOUR 09. best day everrr! Saw Nikki. I love that girl! Such a swetheart <3 And met pretty much everyone I aimed to meet! I was on stage during There For Tomorrow performance. I love my boys! Met Jack from All Time Low backstage too. And then I chilled on their bus for a couple hours while I watched Chris run around naked. How exciting hahahah!

So this is where I do it...IN A BLOG :D hahahahaha. Its kinda like the random things to anonymous people blog. I guess, but this one means more to me. <3 So here we goooooo! PS- The people will be anonymous again.

1.) And now you ask about you and I, there's no you and I,
remember what you put me through I had to...
Wake-up and smell the break up.
Fix my heart, put on my make-up.
Another mess I didn't plan.
And I'll bet you thought you beat me.
Wish you could only see I got an "I Heart ?" written on the back of my hand.

2.) And I can hear the memory in my ears
Back to the years and all those tears
But hear me when I say I'm glad we steered that way
Because now were here

3.) Tell me why you're so hard to forget, don't remind me. I'm not over it.

4.) My state of mind has finally got the best of me, I need you next to me.

5.) She was given the world, so much that she couldn't see </3

1-I cant STAND you. But I cant stay away from you. You're like a drug. I need you. It's so crazy. I just can't let go. But I want to more than anything. I just can't tell you. You're more sensitive than me and I can't see you hurt.

2- I didn't want to push you out of my life. I had to though. I was falling too fast. I never wanted to see you hurt. But I felt as if I had no other choice. I didn't want to be in love. Not so soon. But I knew I would be if I didn't break it off. I always think about you. But I could never tell you that. Because things are different now. And it would be awkward if you knew that everytime someone mentions you...my heart still skips a beat. I love you still :'( I don't want to.

3- I'm glad I got to see what we would be. What we could be. I needed closure. BUT FUCK YOU. You used me. You screwed me over. You "saw me in your future."? Yeah the fuck right. I hope you catch an STD. Whore.

4- NO ONE LIKES YOU. You're way too full of yourself. But I care about you too much to tell you the truth. Grow up. Stop bragging. And look in the mirror. There are prettier people and just because someones staring...it doesnt mean they are checking you out.

5- You don't deserve him.

6- I miss you. Even though I hated you. I'm glad you've gotten better. And I hope when I see you again...we can have a real relationship. I always wanted that.

7- You'll never give me a chance. But I know if you did...you wouldn't regret it.

8- You can amount to so much more. No more drugs. No more bad friends. Why do you have to go prison? You're 18! What happened to you? We were so close. You had a future...but you threw it away.

9- THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. Without you...Who knows where I'd be <3

10- You ruin my life and make it worth living all at the same time. Thanks ;D

WOW, Alot to say now haha. Guess who's meeting David Archuleta? ME! Ahhh <3 fucking amazing. It cost me $200 but it will be so worth it. August 1st will be tops. For sure. I'M SO GLAD DEMI IS HEADLINING. I miss her way too much.

BROOOOO, TAKING 5 WILL BE ON TV HERE FOR THE 1ST TIME EVER. ABC Family. May 3rd. CHECKIT. Everyone will be a Dilly fan now. YESSS. He needs it. I am so so so proud of him. & Click of course.

MY FEET ARE FREEZING. I type in caps alot. I think I should to try refrain from doing it for the rest of this post. Lets see how it works out shall we? haha.

Ohhh, listening to Archie right now makes me so pumped to meet him. Barriers to be exact. My iPod is charged for once. Wowzers. lmfao.

$&@#*($@& My fucking sister is always bitching at night. What the hell? Just shut up and sleep. Bitttccchhh.

Kay well, I have another blog to post. So Ill finish this one off. Wooo, no caps.! <3

xoxo

Sherry Jayyy

I just watched part of Demis new dvd...and I saw our show. I cried. I miss her terribly. She needs to come back. Ill be as close as I possibly can! I need to see her.

In happier news...I will probably get to go visit my mom soon! Shes awesome. I can't believe I'm saying that because not to long ago...I hated her with everything I had.

Who's seeing Jonas on August 19? I AM! I got section 102 row 1. & I get to go to the soundcheck. Siiicccckkk<3

I learned something recently. Making other people happy makes me feel better then when I do something for myself. I know a girl named Dina...She loves John Cena so much. She didnt know he was having a live chat and I went in it and made him say hi to her. She cried, happy tears. And at that moment I learned the best moments in life are the ones where you make others happy. <3

Hmmm, current life:

Everyone is yelling around me, I just took a shower, Nicole just went home, I'm watching "The N", Zoey 101 is on & I hate that show. My sister is being annoying and I'm starving lol.

I never have anything to say on here. =[ Ill blog more, I promise.

xoxo

Sherry Jay

Woah, its been a while. Last time I blogged on here I mentioned not have tickets to see Taylor Swift. Well, I GOT THEM! ha ha. It was amazing. And I freaking met her! <3 Dream come true.

Besides meeting one of my heroes nothing else has been happening. I'm sick as ffuuuhhh! I've been lacking in school as usual. Oh did I mention you should all follow me on Twitter? If you dont have one, get one!

Twitter.com/SherryJonas

Uhm, I have been getting alot of hatemail lately. I have been doing a good job at ignoring it though! I can only be myself, Sorry if thats hell for you ha ha.

Oh did I mention the Click FREAKING Five aren't coming anywhere close to me?! Yeah thats right. I'm mad. I think I said this many times before on here. But it just shows how mad I am. I miss them. I haven't seen them since '05 man.

Speaking of TC5, My hero/their ex lead singer Eric Dill hasn't updated and its killing me. He's getting on my nerves. -__-

Ew, my nose is running ha! I guess I'm done.

UPCOMING SHOWS: David Cook, Paramore & Rockets & Radios

WOOOO <3

It is currently after 3am. Which is like 6pm for me, Because well...I'm nocturnal. I won't be in bed fr another 3 hours so I thought I'd blog.

My mom is randomly wandering around the house...Touching stuff. Its weird. I love her though, she's cute. Ha ha.

Oh, did I mention my life is ruined? Well let me make it simple for you to understand... Taylor swift is coming and I hav no tickets. Exciting, eh? That just adds to my bad mood. Since TC5 isn't coming anywhere close...and if they did I'd probably be too young to go to the show. -_-

School...well....Its lame. I haven't logged on to FLVS in a couple of days so I'm sure I have some emails waiting for telling meI'm failing. Yay.

Well, enough blabbering. I'm going to finish reading this book.

Best thing I read all day:

"The dog sees everything.  He sees one person in the relationship in shambles.  He sees the other trying to help.  He wants to help as well... and ends up eating the girl's medication for breakfast... JUST TO FEEL WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE SOMEONE FOR A DAY!!!  Yet, the dog cannot change her.

I can't believe I just posted my brainstorming in a blog.  Oh well.  

"I ATE YOUR MEDICATION FOR BREAKFAST"

That is the new "the price is right and I'm Bob Barker" lyric..."

Ben Romans never fails to amaze me.