The past has returned...

In my last post I mentioned a boy named Travis...actually, I said this: "Thanks to Travis for being my first love. I waited for you to come back. And when you did it was like a fairytale. Then you broke my heart. I was crushed. BUT IT GOT WORSE. You slept with Kristen the same night. Did I mention this was 4 days after my birthday. What a nice boy. -_- but I did learn not to trust boys who not only have a rep for sleeping around...but that just got out of jail. To others that's common sense. But I had to learn that all myself. I was young, I had no idea what I was getting myself into."

Well wanna know somthing ironic? Not only was he in jail AGAIN. But he just got out friday. FML dude. He texted me saturday. He wanted to see me. As much as I hate him for everything he did to me he told me he's trying to stay out of trouble. I started to believe him. Then he complimented me...I asked him if he was just trying to get in my pants and he assured me that that's not what he wanted. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Everyone needs a second chance. And for some reason I can never say no to him.

So today he was supposed to meet me at victorias so we could see eachother after almost a year... He never showed up. He didn't text back. He didn't answer my calls. I feel ditched. I feel forgotten. I feel dumb. He somehow has found another way to hurt me. I just can't deal with this. I'm NEVER gonna get over this kid. Even though I KNOW I should. I just can't. </3