Due to a misunderstanding happened in the Lets Promote The Click Five group, i suppose a lot of you may have questioning why and i currently have no answer to answer your question. And there are a lot of changes going on, like for example, the admins and stuff, you can check it out on the ning group. Jenni also re-make the fan page on facebook. click the link below, it will direct you to the latest fanpage. Sorry about the little uncomfortable thing going here.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/LETS-PROMOTE-THE-CLICK-FIVE/235578639299?v=app_2373072738#/pages/LETS-PROMOTE-THE-CLICK-FIVE/235578639299?v=wall

I am now reading a book tittled "Life Begins at Fatty" and i gotta say this book is pretty much gives me a point of view of a 'fatty's' life. For a teenager my age, everyone are busy for a short, tank tops, dress, and so much other. but not me. im not that into those things. fine i love fashion, but i like dressing up people, not dressing myself.

I didnt go to school yesterday, lets say, accident happened. i got scars on my knee and both hands, all of the three scars pretty much hurt, especially the one on my knee. hufftt. i can say nothing about it. the absent board said i was sick because i am. i just cant believe it, one of my teacher said

"how could a fat girl like amelia got sick?" it hurts my heart a lot. she's a teacher and how could she said that? well, i never thought that im a victim of racism. but indeed, i am the real 'real' victim of all the theories i have been learning about.

i guess people in my country still judge someone from how they look. not from the inside. maybe i do deserve to be treated like that. well i dont know. its just sometime i wish and hope i have a body like every teenager wants. a perfect thin body. im tired being mocked by people.

i guess im a little jealous when i see my friends are busy thinking about their relationship with their boyfriend, im jealous when my friends are thinking how to make their crush notice and finally go out together. i admit, i want to go out with a boy i like. a boy i have been crushing on. but no boys (especially in my school) want to go out with a fat girl, except for my boy best friends. its not that im a shame of myself. i always try to put good things on my mind. i try to make every bad things seems good.

maybe i just had to deal with it. maybe i dont have to be such a whiney baby.

loves

-Amelia

im so sorry that i missed the birthday! its been 10 days since your birthday but still, HAPPY WAY BELATED BIRTHDAY THE ONE LOVE!

sorry im late :/

For you who knows me more than a year must know how addicted i am to The Click Five. Some of you may know that they were such a bomb in Asia in 2008. In 2008, i remember they won a breakthrough artist award in MTV Asia Award and i remember crying during their live show here in Jakarta. But now, they have lost a little bit of their popularity. they are now indie and on their way to reach back everything that have slipped through their grasp. They have gained a lot of fans and they also have lost some. Now, i am asking you to help them gain what they have lost. I am asking for a help. Help to Re-Promote them. Because if its not us who act, who else would?

There are a lot of fans who tries to do that, and i am one of it. me, along with my friends, jenni, mel and TC5 Indonesia Fansite decided to work together and have Lets Promote The Click Five! site on. If you still want them to come to Asia or Anywhere you live right now, please help us spread the word about them and do what we do. Re-promoting the band. We appreciate every single thing you do. Besides the band has know about the whole re-promoting things.

much loves
-Amelia

Another night, another teardrops

Its you again, its you the reason why

How do i get you out of my mind?

Should i just have to wait for the time to speak?

I cant wait, i can no more hold this pain

This pain of loving you, pain of knowing you

I wanted to speak out, but im not brave enough

I just hope, even though i know, hoping isnt help

i cant be true to you, i cant tell you, i just keep silent

I can pretend like i am never hurt

But inside, i am broken into small pieces

My soul, my heart, myself are tearing apart

Yes, i am broken because of you

okay i know this is a little bit over reacted for a teen like me, but i just feel like writing it so i just post it here :)

So i just read my idol's blog, ben romans', here, and i was quite shock with all the things he wrote.

i honestly expecting a gig from the boys, and actually expecting a meet and greet session and so on stuff that a fan always expect. maybe im not their best fan and maybe im not even that kind of-know-it-all-fan.

I do love the click five with all my heart and i do expecting them to get to Asia soon, but now the things are different and i think they're facing the hardest time of their carreer so far. Theres nothing much i can say because there's too many thoughts about them i kept on my mind.

So a little flash backs about them, maybe i told you guys about this, and i never got bored with it. The click five is the main reason i speak english, and the click five is the main reason why i got motivated with all the things around me. I remember when they planned to come to Jakarta, i was in bad mood because i got all my grades down and my mom told me if i can fix my grades, she would allowed me to catch their gig. and yes, i did it. i fix all the grades and i finally got a chance to catch them onstage.

maybe my experience is nothing compared to the other fans'. But one thing i know is, that i am so proud to be a 'CLICKER' and i officially got clicked. I gain more friends from all over the world because of them and i found out that friends are a really precious thing in this life.

I dont want to let The Click Five down. I want to be a better fan and i want them to see that they have a lot of loyal fans who actually wait for them, wether theyre in Asia, Africa, America, Europe, and even Australia.

WE LOVE YOU THE CLICK FIVE

Love,

Amelia

I got my holiday since Sunday, and on the first day of holiday, my classmates and i went to bandung, it is more like a farewell celebration, but i dont want to say 'bye' to them at all. im not going to tell you a bed time stories like how i get there and what happened on the bus, but i want to share something about a 'traditional Bandung Musician' and a 'street kid'.

Since the first time i reached the destination which was in 'Kawah Putih', there is a kid caught my attention, he was sitting alone with no adults on the side of the park, and he got this hat right infront of him, he is a beggar, he waited for some nice people to gave him money, i was a bit sad when i saw him, i wanted to give him some money but i put my wallet on my friend's backpack.

Thats the kid

Just a few moment, my friends called me to see the kawah putih and yes, it was beautiful, on the way there, there is this guy who play a traditional West Java music instrument. he also sang the traditional song beautifully. Too bad he's a street musician, if only my country can give people like them more respect, im sure they will be a new strength of Indonesia. Because the culture, the traditional intrument, traditional songs, each of them have their uniqueness.

  This is the guy who play the traditional instrument

This birthday celebration i attended to was my bestfriend's sister's. Her name is Myra and my best friend's name is sabila. But if you ask me whats so special about the celebration, im going to say, the surprise they brought for me.

Both Myra and Sabila knew i kinda love this guy, and this guy, was the one they asked to joined us watching the movie. anyway, we watched Night at the museum 2, the movie was damn funny, and its also a great one to watched.

i just wanted to share with you all about today's experience. I had a lot of fun today, at 1 pm i met Sabila, Myra, Myra's boyfriend, and 'him'. We went straight to the cinema and bought our tickets, the movie played at 2 : 25 pm, while it was still 1 pm. So we decided to had lunch first. We ate this grilled chicken + soft drinks, and all of us ordered the same food. As Myra, Sabila, and Myra's boyfriend finished their lunch, the washed their hands, and guess what? they left me alone with 'him' because i havent finished mine, yet. Right after they got back from washing hands, my lunch was done, and it was me who went away.

After we finished our lunch, Myra wanted to take some pics and so were me and sabila. So we went to this photobooth and took few pics of ourselves. We love the pics so damn much. Finally after few pics had taken, the clock showed 2 : 10 pm. yay, our movie is about to start. We rushed to the cinema and we sat there. hmm, as i told you, the movie was so damn funny, i dont mind to watch it again if somebody ask me :)

what we did after watching night at the museum 2 were just hanging around senayan city, the mall we went. We got to one another store and found nothing. at last, we stopped by at surfer girl, and yes, another picture of me and sabila were taken. Just then, i got a phone call from my mom telling me shes downstairs already and i went home, but this is the pic, of today's trip.

from left to right -> 'him', Myra's boyfriend, Myra, Sabila, too bad i took this pic so i couldnt be in there :/

Who doesnt love birthday parties? well, maybe there are some people, but i am so not one of them. i just got home from my niece's birthday party, and i had so much fun there! Dinner, talking with family, hang out with cousins, and share jokes with everybody! But, honestly, my fav part is when my niece opened her presents! she was so excited to open each of the presents she got. My sissy bought my niece a really nice 'princess ariel' bag.

After the guests were home, there were only closest relatives who stay, and that was the best time of all. It was the time when we really are becoming a big family. everybody was there, my uncle from north-sumatra, my aunts, and a lot of my cousins all together in one place in the same time. we rarely do that. because each of us are so busy.

i guess talking randomly is in my blood because all my family talked way too random earlier. but it was a lot of fun, for the first time after a few days i laugh out loud and almost cried. i havent laugh that bad for such a long time ago. im writing this random blog just to wait for my facebook finish uploading the pics at the birthday party. Too bad i forgot to take a pic of the birthday cake :( it has ariel ontop of it and it painted blue. :)

BIRTHDAY PARTY IS A LOT OF FUN!

and oh, HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY KYLE PATRICK <3

-Amelia

Have you ever think about future? What do you think of future? I just watched High School Musical 3, and i was thinking about my future. Im at 8th grade now, but its ok if i start to think about my future and what i want to be.

The song that describe my feeling right now is scream. I dont know where to go, i dont know who i should follow, all i know is just i enjoy my life the way it is right now.

I guess i havent think of future as much as my family do. when i grow up, i just want to do things i love. i want to have a job that can take me around the world. sometime i want to be a wriitter, but sometime, i enjoy myself to promote something. Whenever my friend ask me about something they want to promote, im gladly do it. its just soo good.

Well, i dont know how my future will be, but i know that my bright future is waiting for me somewhere ahead this time. I feel pretty confidence about myself.

What about you? What do you think your future would be? where do you see your self in the next 15 years? well, you choose your life, and life that you live in right now, is your choice. I havent choose mine yet, but soon, i will :)

-The future will always be bright.

i found this interesting article and i gotta say this is an important one. go check the link.

http://tech.yahoo.com/blogs/null/130078

Even a little thing can be a huge problem. Switch off is the solution. Anyone can make a change. Start from a little thing, we all can make a huge different.

As we know that the earth is dying now, and if we dont want to try to save it, who else would? We can make the difference, now its up to us. :)

-Amelia

Last week, i supposed to meet my 4th grade till now crush at my mom's friend birthday party which was his father. But no, the plan changed. I decided to met my online friends, Ayu, Aliza, and Usha. actually, i didnt regret my decision at all. maybe i was, at first, but after i met ayu? no. not at all. i realized that i could meet my crush whenever i want to, but i couldnt meet ayu whenever i want to. because ayu live in Riau meanwhile i live in Jakarta. which is miles away!

The next day, Tuesday, i was celebrating sabila's birthday. we watched this Indonesian Horror Movie, i admit, i was scared inside the cinema. whenever the ghost appeared, i felt like i heard footsteps behind me, but i know it was just my imagination. after we finished watching the movie, we went to McDonald's. it was pretty fun, and i enjoyed the time.

Now, i know that my crush isnt something that is more important than my best friends. Because i know my best friends would always be there in the time i need them the most. i love you my pals! and it will never changed!

I've lost 3 dearest member of my family. First, My auntie, she passed away on August 2004, because of Lung Cancer. Then 3 years after her passing away, My cousin which was her son, passed away too. After my cousin, last year, on april 21st, my grandma left me and my family. Losing them from my life, was a total bummer for me at the moment.Especially when my aunt's passing away, i can tell you, no one cried harder than me.

Im all alone now at home, its 6:28 pm and im lonely. i havent take my dinner yet, and im still waiting for my sister and mom. and now, im just wondering if maybe i can turn back time and spent time more often with them who left me. I remember how addicted me and my cousin was to soccer. we used to watch English premiere and champion league together. well, the reason why i write this blog is because i just realized how much i miss to watch soccer along with him, and i know, its something that impossible.

I MISS YOU! and i hope i can dream something about you! atleast, just for a hug? <333333

-Amelia

So, tomorrow is the big day. The speech contest. I've prepared myself in the last 2 weeks, but still, im nervous. its just, i dont really think i'll make it to the next round. I may have a skill, but 2 weeks is not a really long time to prepared everything and practiced. The other thing that make me more nervous is that im the only contestant from my school. Well, one of my friend, putri, she was qualified to compete, but too bad, she sick now. Lets just pray she'll get better soon. Hopefully, tomorrow. ;)

My family and teacher believed in me. They said that i do have a skill for this. Im not sure. I seriously doubt myself. It feels like im going to through the contest all alone, even though i wont. My sister and dad promised me to come tomorrow. But still. I just doubt everything. If only putri isnt sick, im sure i wont feel this nervous. because i know the other contestant, most of them are my friends, and i can tell you how good they are.

I need to keep my faith on my heart. I know. I have to believe in myself just the way people around me do. But, tonight, everything seems soo hard. Just hard. no matter how hard i tried to keep focus on this contest, I just keep thinking about how big would the stage be, how much the audience would be and how nervous i am tomorrow. Useless thought i know. god, i wish i have an easier topic. seriously.

Wish me luck, I really want to make my family and school proud of me. Because i know im not a really dilligent and clever student at school. I never reach 90 in Math, Physics, and Biology. The highest score i ever got was 80 for math. But, i know i got another skills. I dont pushed myself too hard to have a perfect score in 3 subjects i mentioned before. And I know, if i can win the contest, i am so gonna make them proud. And by that I atleast show them that I can do something right. Something that make them proud of me.

WISH ME LUCK again pleasee

hugs and kisses,

-Amelia

this is like my first blog, so i think im going to tell you something about myself.. My name is Amelia, and people usually called me Amelia or Lia. I never mind people called me that way, but I DO mind when people started to calling me as 'amel'.

Im a student in 29 Junior High School in Jakarta, i kinda proud of it. this friday, im having a speech contest and i do really wish to win on this contest. wish me luck please? :D

i have this blue book that i can never leave home without. Even, people thought that my blue book is my diary, but actually, NO. That blue book, is a book where i put my imagination! i write my fanfics on that book, and for me, writing fanfic is a way to relax, thats how i refresh my mind.

you can say that im an ordinary girl with an extraordinary imaginations, family, and friends. i cant imagine how hard and flat my life would be without them around me, other than family and bffs, i cant live without music, im just that addicted to music and also internet. i made friends through it and im happy for it! music connected me to people, and i found those people through internet, thats how its connected! lol.

a few years ago, i never really thought i'll write this blog, i didnt even thought i'll speak english, i was so bad at it, and thankfully, im pretty good now. even though im not as good as the other blogger, i still hope you can understand what i wrote about..

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-Amelia