Guess who's back? Uh...me. Yeah, that was horribly obvious, but shouldn't you expect that from me already? Anyway, why so absent? Well, to keep it short - radio formal, getting lost while leaving said formal, studying for finals, stressing over finals, having my laptop go through ANOTHER virus, taking finals, getting a position on the board of the radio station, crushing on a boy, spazzing over concert hopes, having another laptop problem that can't be fixed until August, looking for a job, blogging my love for Click and....writer's block.

OK, not really short, but if I told you all these stories, it would take me FOREVER! Then again, maybe if I blogged them after they all happened, maybe I wouldn't be in this situation. Maybe I'll let you in about them one of these days. Just remind me! So, I'm officially done with sophomore year, and I'm currently looking for summer employment, so I can use that paycheck to spend on shows on boats. Yes...concert Click cruise! Let's hope I can get one soon! I'm also aiming to get at least my permit this year. I want to be free of public transportation. I want to control the stops here!

With that said, I'm going to try to write a story and listen to some good tunes. Summer soundtrack recommendations?

See you on the flipside...:-)

Watching - SNL on E! I'm trying not to laugh while I type, but it's kinda hard. Too funny, even as a rerun.

Playing- with my new hair. Black and red = rockstar hair.

Wanting - Midnight to happen so I have technical rights to eat my cookies. WIN.

Thinking -Ouch...my head. They braided too tight...again...

So, as this is the last day of Lent, it's the last day of my little challange that I unintelligently put myself through, and hey, it didn't suck. I dorked out, made lists, wrote confessions and promoted bands, and all in all, it was pretty cool. Maybe I'll just do this every Lenten year, instead if giving up stuff. I really did miss chocolate, and the quicker I can have it, the better. Yes, I have urges. It's not cool. Or is it? ...Nah.

What I should be asking is, what did I learn from this? Well, that's why I have lists for...

1 - That I'm a big dork, and it's a miricle people even like me.

2 - I study a lot...or try to. Darn education.

3 - I really am easily distracted. What a...oooh, song! What was I saying?

4 - In-jokes are everywhere...sorry for confusing those who didn't get it.

5 - I'm a music junkie...but I knew that already.

6 - I shouldn't be all depressed over my friend situration, I should do something about it - and I did...I'll tell that story another day.

7 - Makeup is awesome.

8 - I really wanted chocolate...sad.

9 - Randomness is awesome.

10 - I really like lists. Like, really.

See you on the flipside..:-)

So...my head aches...again. This after 6 hours of removing my braids off my natual hair. OOHHH, I let out a secret...but not really. It's kinda obvious, actually. Look at my picture - braids. Ta-da! Anyway, I had to be rid of them, so I can get my hair done, and hopefully go all red. This is one of those times when I wish my digital camera worked, and TOL had a way to update photos...I'll go work on the first one. That's all, really...I'm pretty boring, remember? ;)

See you on the flipside...

Listening: Bounce...again. The Cab are too darn lovely to not listen to. Insert me being a dummy and doing air guitar.

Watching - One of the coolest people on youtube, ever. Angry humor + makeup = awesome. Watch Justine NOW. :-)

Wearing - Pink nail polish...oh, pretty. I'm so easily pleased with that color, but it took FOREVER to find.

Wanting - CHOCOLATE. I have cravings again...

Thinking - WOOT. No school, no school...party timeeeeeeee.

So, I'm on a Easter break...yay. Seriously, it's kinda boring right now, but that's what you get when you spend it at home all day, not including going out to buy Chinese food and nail polish. It was just...sighworthy and not in a good way. I need activity. HELP.

Now, I wanna say something, and some people might hate me for this, but...I don't have nor want a Twitter. I'm already on here...140 characters aren't enough for me to talk to you about what I feel and think. Plus, it seems a tad bit narssaistic. 'Followers'? Dude, kinda not cool. I just can't get down with it, even with so many people I listen to and hang with and generally like all on it. I can't do it. Sorry...can we all agree that TOL's awesomer than a Twitter in the first place? ;)

See you on the flipside. <3

List time...again.

What I will be doing during Easter Break - which starts tomorrow:

1 - Work on papers. Lots of papers. Evil professors.

2 - Do my hair. Red, here I come?

3 - Try to go shopping for a dress for my formal. Give me...ten hours. I'll find one.

4 - Going to Easter mass with the whole fam. Amen.

5 - Catching up on rest...aka, sleeping. Win.

6 - Finally getting my chocolate! :-)

See you on the flipside. <3

Listening - Totally not this song, because that would be obvious, and I'm totally not obvious. :-) Oh, and this, to cut monotony.

Wearing - My Happy Bunny shirt. It says 'Let's focus on me'. How true. ;)

Wanting - to survive this last day of school before Easter break...and maybe see the boy. :-)

Thinking - Must...listen...to something else...before mind gets destroyed by awesome guitar playing...

Hi! What's up, all? Today in life...nothing much. Yeah, my day was extrealy mundane. Even the silly pranks the kids at the station played really didn't do much for me. I guess I was kinda over stuff for today. It happens. I'm gonna be better tomorrow, since I'll be busy, and busy = not so horrible. Work is good sometimes...shocker of the year. Sadly, my Ethics class is cancalled tomorrow, so no cute screamo/rocker boy to see and talk to. What a shame...but here's a thing about me - I always have a wealth of eye candy at my school. Lucky for college girls here. Win.

OK, now for your 'IQIQIQ' playback update: 890 plays so far...but I know you can get more. There is an event on the book of face that is fully behind the cause of getting more plays for the band, and 1000 is only 110 plays away, so just search 'Z100 I Quit, I Quit, I Quit', like, now. I have a feeling you can get that done. Go Team Click Fans...we're like a sports team, practically. Who's captain, though? 

See you on the flipside...

Watching - Nothing, since I turned the TV off. I plan to read my art book after this blog, so no distractions!

Wearing- Pink shirt, pink iPod, pink headphones, pink lipgloss...I sense a theme.

Wanting - A certain song coung to go up to 1000 by Friday....;)

Thinking - Don't play that song again...go listen to Second Nature instead...oh, no, I forgot. I'm addicted to that, too. Crud.

So, I'm happy. Why? Well, for one thing, a lot of people listened to 'I Quit, I Quit, I Quit', and therefore, me and Mel are very pleased fans. Anything to promote those loveble, talented guys we listen to, right? It just makes me happy...and addicted. Seriously, their song from MMAP (Modern Minds and Pastimes) 'Addicted to Me' was a warning. We were going to be addicted...to them. So true.

Oh, and I spoke to the guy I like today in class...about class stuff. He's cool. I'm a nerd. This will never work. Too bad I don't take hints like that so easily. :-) He didn't act like he thought I was a nerd, so, that's fine...right? With that, I'm gonna do work, and try to not be distracted doing it. Good luck, right?

See you on the flipside...

Listening to - I Quit, I Quit, I Quit. About time Z100 got with the program and gave my boys their due...and you should too. Go click ze link. Play it twenty times. It'll make you happy. Do it now.

Wearing - This old Junior Mints shirt I have. It has glitter...I'm easily pleased.

Wanting - You to go play that song. Did you do it yet? Do it.

Thinking - When is this album out? I want it.

OK, so I'm dorking out on new music, but what do you expect?  It's amazing and pretty awesome, and if you listen to it, maybe my dear radio station might play it.. It all makes the world better. Trust me. In other news...

I have three days of school this week, and 7 days until I can stop blogging everyday. However, I think I like doing this. Maybe I'll blog more regually. It makes me less stressed out, and more chill. Win for all. I'm also getting red hair this week. Yep, red. Red is always rocking. I missed it, too. Yep, I was a redhead for a while, and I'm going back. Woot for me. Now, to play the song...again. I'm addicted. Thanks, Click...and thanks Mel for showing me the link in the first place. :-)

See you on the flipside.

Listening to - Totally not Poker Face covers, since Mel would tell me I fail or something...also, to redeem myself...SS. <3333

Doing - a search on dresses for the formal. Darn spaghetti straps on EVERYTHING. Girls like me do not approve.

Wanting - A concert and no school. Like usual. Have you not read this blog?

Thinking - Batman and Robin...who's who now in this silly ol' band?

So...I have a crush on an actual boy. Not a actor, or a person in a band...wait, he IS in a band, but not a signed one with music videos and groupies. For once, right? He's in my Ethics class, and he sits behind me now. For what I know and infer about him, he's into hardcore rock music, in a band, really insightful about things when he speaks in class, and yet very chill. Oh, and he's cute...he's taller than me (and I'm about 5'10, so...), lanky, wears glasses, blond shaggy hair and rocks the torn jeans and rocker tee combo...and he's cute. :-) I'm weak.

I think, however, that a guy like him would probably have a girlfriend back home. I mean, he's cool and...yeah, totally not going to be into me. He's nice to me when I end up making conversation with him, though. I think he's just being polite. Maybe I need to (wo)man up and talk to him more. He seems cool. He might even end up being a good friend of mine if I work at it. Someone tell me to not be shy around him, please!

See you on the flipside. <33

Watching - Concert footage from Beyonce's latest tour...that I can't go to, since I didn't know it was even happening. Oops! Well, Youtube keeps me in check. :-)

Wearing - Orange. Orange you glad I told you?

Wanting - Uh...a date. Again. Please? :-)

Thinking -Stuff. What else? :-)

So...what's up? Yeah...I have not much to say today. Fridays, honestly are when I mentally check out and just jam on music and tv all night. Yay for upstairs wifi! :-) This weekend, I'll be working on papers, looking for a dress for my formal in a couple of weeks, and not thinking about a boy I have a thing for. Or, at least, I'll be trying. What are you doing? I might need ideas, if I choose to procrastinate. ;)

See you on the flipside.

Watching - Making The Band 4...again. What do you know? I enjoy the drama.

Wearing - Black, white and yellow all over. Springtime approved...even with leggings and a coat over it.

Wanting - No more MILEY. BOOOO. Get off my Glamour Magazine!

Thinking - I just had the best 20 minutes of my life....for today. :-) TY, Mel.

So, I had a pretty nice day today...for once. No morning class, so I got to sleep in. I didn't take a train, since my aunt took me to school. I almost made through my Art class awake. No coffee, don't blame me. I played some Katamari at the station...and sucked. Friends laughed and mocked me. I laughed insanely afterwards. We went out to get a taco for me, and fried apple sticks for them, since I couldn't touch it...fun. I hate Lent when there's temptation...which is everywhere.

Anyway, I've been thinking - again - about stuff. This time, about what I should've given up for Lent. Social networking sites? Uh...no thanks. I need that in my life. IM'ing also stays. How else could I talk to my various buddies? Coffee? NO! I think this was the best idea for me. Yes, I weakened twice - once by tempation, once by foolish forgetfullness - but I'm better at saying no now to fries, ice cream and cookies. By Easter, however...PARTY TIME. ;) Sadly, there will be no zebra dancing involved in that, but that's because I would fail to it compared to the master. Go look at the master. He is a winner at life.

With that...see you on the flipside. <3

Playing - Games. I should be studying but...games! Games = fun.

Wearing - Green eyeshadow..and blue eyeshadow. I hope my parents don't notice too much I wore this all day. :-)

Wanting - Summertime, summertime...you do it to me? :)

Thinking - Oh...new level. :-)

I'm totally sorry for getting all depressing on you yesterday. I feel better now, and needless to say, I have a lot of people to talk to this weekend. Anyway, it's another crazy/mundane day for me today. My study group went bust today, but we'll try again tomorrow. I waited in the rain for people...blah. It's OK. I'm learning this 'organization' thing on the fly.

In other news, I had Lucky Charms today. I know that might not be important, but I haven't had some since I was a kid! It still tasted like happiness and marshmallow stars, pots of gold and four leaf clovers. Yummy. TY, school cafeteria. That was 1.99 well spent. :-)

With that, I'm gonna study or watch tv. Or both.

See you on the flipside. :-)

I'm not very happy today. I've been thinking (overthinking?) about friends, me, me and my friends (or my lack of them). I'm a mess sometimes, I think. I sat on the train going home thinking how bad a friend I've been to people during the years. No, I never lied to them, or made fun of them. I just...stopped talking to them after a while. It wasn't because I hated them. They were just too busy, and I knew hanging with me would be a waste of their time, so I dissappered, never to return to them. It happened when I transitioned from Jr. high to H.S, and again from H.S. to college. Now, it's by semester. It's a miracle I even have friends, but they're at the radio station, and I'm stuck there for the rest of school.

There's even problems with my friends there. They're dating, and I'm the third wheel. I feel I need to fade away from them, since it looks like they don't need me. I know it sounds like I'm over dramatic, but sometimes, it happens. I pull away before I get hurt. It's due to me being made fun of so many times, so I barely trust anyone. I lack female friends, and those I do have are so different from me. While it's not a bad thing, is it wrong to have someone who likes the same things as you do a little more? Please note I'm speaking about my 'real life friends', not those who I met in a little message board a couple years ago (RIP, TC5 MB).

So, what should I do? I lost a lot of phone numbers, can't find them online, and they don't live nearby. I don't know what to do. I can just say sorry. Sorry for not calling, not writing, not trying to talk to you. Sorry for my irrational fears of being hurt. Sorry for not letting me know you. I talk about myself too much to people almost intentionally, because if I get to know them, I get attached, then clingy, then I have to let go even more. I don't want to be the annoying friend. I was that once, and people hated me for it. I...am trying to be better. I just hope this time around, I can get better results for it.

See you on the flipside.

Doing - An assignment, since I doubt I can do it at home. What with the studying and the reviewing and the work...oy.

Wearing - 'Professional' clothing, to do professional work for class, so I can get me a professional grade. :-)

Wanting - Less work. Oy. Again.

Thinking - This semester is over when again?

In news today - I have more work to do. I haven't bought my charger yet, so I'm using school resources (read - computer lab) to blog to you early. I can't use my home computer either, since, frankly, I'll be too busy to even touch it. I have a test tomorrow, and I gotta get a good grade on this one. Yes, I work too much. Can't help it, since I have to do it. It's...my job? I don't get paid for it, though, so that sucks.

Waking up early to do an assignment for one class, then go to the station to do my show, then go here to write this, my  report on said early morning assignment, plus find articles for class tomorrow...sucks. Don't be like me and procrastinate the weekend away. Do SOME work. I'll try to do better, though. You should, too.  Self-improvement is the new black, I heard. Or was that green? IDK.

See you on the flipside.

Nope, didn't find my charger. Guess I'm buying a new one. I heard it's $25, so I'm ok with it...kinda. Boo parting with money. I need a job this summer for all these expenses, dude. Anyway, I have nothing else to say, since Sunday is boring, pretty much. Sad but so true. Two more weeks, though until I can have my chocolate! :-)

See you on the flipside.

Watching - The almighty OK Go. They are just well-dressed awesomeness of rock.

Wearing - Slummy clothes, for a slummy Saturday. Woot not dressing up for anyone!

Wanting - Uh...not much...except CHOCOLATE. GIMME!

Thinking - Lent will be over soon, right?

Saturdays are useless sometimes. I have nothing to do, I can't go out, and TV fails me. Darn reruns. I would bake, but I can't eat what I make, so what's the use? It's times like these when cravings for makeup and triple chocolate muffins start dancing in my head. Sadly, I can't enjoy that, since I still have a couple weeks or so to go. While this means I still get to blog here every day until then, that means no happy cookie time or lattes for me.

Just yesterday, my friend brought in cookies for the whole station...and I couldn't have one, watching them enjoy the chocolate-rainbow-chip goodness in front of me. Thursday, someone had fries and a hamburger...none which I could eat. I'm weakening just thinking about it, but I know it'll be over with soon. Then, I'm rewarding myself with a chocolate cake slice...or a cupcake. Oh, and deff. a caramel latte from Starbucks. :-)

See you on the flipside! <3

P.S - always make sure you have an editor...trust me, I know. ;)

Listening to: Poker Face, but this version's better! Yay for Brits and their killer renditions of pop hits.

Wearing : Pink! I'm the geek in the pink...darn you, Jason Mraz for knowing me too well.

Wanting : A good grade on that psych exam.

Thinking : Overworked, underappericated...I sound like I'm 30!

So, took that test I've been fretting about. I don't feel I screwed up too bad this time around. Yay. Also, my Theology quiz...totally aced it, I know it. Guess I know my Bible! Although I want to go all ranty on how I feel over school, I'll channel it in something I'd like to call...

ZE RULES.

OK, so they're not the end-all be-all set of rules you need to know, but I'm just speaking from what I'm noticing and what I wish others would do. In this installment, for Mel who really needs it right now to pass on to others, concert etiquette.

1 - Please, please, please don't totally bug out if you're in the front row. No grabbing onto band members, no pushing people to get attention, no being all teenie. You know what I'm talking about! Just CHILL.

2 - Don't be rude to others in the pit, period. Guys, we're all here to rock out. Let's all get along. No bragging about being a 'fan club member', or that you went to see them ten million times. Deff. no teasing others! FAIL

3 - Consiter your height. If you're a little smaller, ask someone NICELY to move a bit if they're tall so you can see. If you're like me and pretty tall, get ready to move if needed. It's only right.

4 - Unless you want to be silently mocked, no wearing the band's shirt to their show. Oh, and no fancy outfits. This isn't a club!

5 - Pictures and videos are good, but not if it's at others' expense. Watch your arms and elbows.

6 - No calling people while the band is performing. It's just annoying and a little silly...although I admit I did it once, but it was my mom, so...sorry!

7 - If you're like me and go to shows alone, be friendly and try to make a pal to hang around with. You already have great taste in music in common!

8 - Don't bug out (too bad) when you spot a band member. I know this from experience. Just breathe and believe. ;)

9 - Buy two shirts from merch. One to wear, one for them to sign!

10 - Have fun...duh!

Hope this helps, guys at your next show. I kinda want to do this some more soon, so keep reading!

See you on the flipside. <3

Watching - The Office. I need to catch up, dude, this show is good.

Wearing - My new blazer! I love cute clothes for half off.

Wanting - To study, which I am mutlitasking in doing. Yay me!

Thinking - Conditioning, Memory, Learning, SLEEP...zzzz...

Back to normal blogs! YAY! In news of me today - still no charger. I didn't activlely look though, so I'll let EVERYONE know tomorrow. People will hear from me. If that doesn't work, I guess I'm buying a new one. Crud. Let's hope I find it...or else, I won't be so happy. I have a Psych exam tomorrow, too. FUN. I hate Psych. It just....aggravates me so. Sometimes, I really just don't want to deal with school and instead just be somewhere else. Paris, Tokyo, London...not here. I'm overly stressed during the week, and I have no clue to cope with it except sleep and being online all day. It's not exactly productive, but it's either that or break down. I don't need that...who does?

So, I'm gonna study, and wait for Saturday, since that means I get pictures and videos of a show I'm missing the day before. ;)

See you on the flipside.

I have a list...again. Wait. I didn't give an reason. OK, I'm studying, so I gotta go do that or fail. Fail = bad. Enjoy!

Top five things I wish I could say to someone right now:

1 - I'm surprised you haven't ran away yet.

2 - Please don't think I'm a failure. I can do better.

3 - Hi. Nice to actually talk to you.

4 - You need to get over youself.

5 - Can I get a picture of you...since it's been FOREVER since I saw you?

See you on the flipside.

...is her charger for her laptop. I forgot it at school at the station, and I KNOW it'll be there tomorrow, but since I have half battery life, I have to have half a good blog. AKA...random thoughts.

I need to sleep earlier...then I wouldn't have to sleep on the train home.

I'm overworked, seiously. NO MORE.

So, midterm grades came out...mom wasn't horribly mad this time around. Time to go hardcore on this darn Art grade.

I'm missing an awesome show right now...and it was free. Jesse, we shall meet one day...and it will be AWESOME.

I need to charge my iPod. It's practically dead.

I also need to be less scatterbrained. Seriously, I remember everything but that? OY.

See you on the flipside. <3

I honstely don't feel like blogging today, guys. I'm tired, about to be overworked, and I have the feeling any creative thought I have in my head is being replaced with talk about the Bible - I'm taking a Theology class, if you didn't guess. I need help...and another break. I think I'll just push through. That's all I can do in this world - push through and work hard for the weekend.

See you on the flipside.

I have a headache. BOO. With that, more random thoughts.

I love discount shopping...when it works for me. Hello dream blazer for half off.

I think I need a twitter, but I have a blog. Isn't that good enough?

Band boys - still cute and getting cuter. Who knew?

I think me and words together, since I totally mess up on my thoughts and people misunderstand me. It makes me feel crappy.

I think I need glasses, too. Woot me turning into a ironic hipster soon?

I miss chocolate. WHEN IS LENT OVER?

I love Family Guy. :-)

See you on the flipside.

Another six reasons why I'm not doing a real blog since I'm too tired...again:

1 - Woke up early to hang with mom in Manhattan, eating breakfast at McD's.

2 - Went shopping, walking all over several stores, finding my dream blazer.

3 - Eating at a Chinese Buffet for 9 bucks for the two of us! Deal!

4 - Getting lost in the MTA system....boo, weekend construction!

5 - Getting lost in the art of masters at a museum, my eyes wide open.

6 - Enjoying some mother-daughter time, new clothes in tow.

See you on the flipside...:-)

Listening -In Pieces: BSB = <3. That is all.

Wearing - Clothes. That is also all.

Wanting - To not suck at scrabble! I thought I was a writer! I'm supposed to be good with words.

Thinking - Shoes. Shoes. Shoes, OMG, Shoes. Just kidding! :-)

So, Fridays are usually really crazy/chill in my school. In the morning, people buzz like bees, going insane. Even I'm bouncing off the walls a bit, laughing at the station with friends. By my last class, however,  people were just waiting for the clock to strike 4:30 to go home. By that time, I usually just run out to the radio station - which is several feet away, and play Playstation with my friends. Oh, did you know I suck at Mortal Kombat? Well, I do, but my friends gave me mercy and let me win a couple times. Katermari...yeah, suck at that, too. It was fun, though! I like rolling things with trippy music. :-)

With that, see you on the flipside!

We now interurpt a normal blog for another list, since I'm bored and a little uninspired.

Five more random things about me (obviously based off Facebook's '25 random things...' meme)

1 - I text a lot on my cell phone, and just recently I started to make calls to more people than just my mom.

2 - I hate fish, but yet like sushi. How can that be?

3 - I had another iPod that I got for my 16th birthday...and I lost it/it got stolen while I was shopping for back to school clothes.

4 - I want to be an author, and prefer I do it while I'm still in college. It'd be pretty cool!

5 - I sleep on the train ride to and from school almost every day. It's like a rocking chair or something...so soothing.

See you on the flipside...

Watching - Food Network. I should be studying, but...it's food! Food's awesome!

Wearing - No nail polish. I kinda chipped it all off in class today. Sad, since it was a nice dark purple one.

Wanting - A little focus, here!

Thinking - Oh, dear.

Remember when I wrote a long time ago about me wanting to make everyone of my friends feel better? Yeah, that still reigns very true, and a lot of people know that. However, there's just moments when I just don't want to hear it anymore. That's really mean of me, and I don't try to be, but sometimes I don't want to be the first one you go to when you need help, especially if it's the same old song. I need to deal with my own issues too, and very few people tend to make it all about themselves, which makes me not want to help them later on. It's just...not good, for all involved. I want to help...but sometimes, even I need a break!

OK, no more ranting, and before anyone says anything, this is not for a specific person, it's just pretty general. I'm usually not this blunt about my issues. Until next time..

See you on the flipside. <3

Listening - Lose it All: Told you I was a rabid BSB fan. I can never outgrow them, plus, this is one of their best ballads in my opinion.

Wearing - Green eyeshadow. No way I was getting pinched!

Wanting - a redo on certain things, but I understand the plan now, and I plan to work for it.

Thinking - This study group will work...I hope.

So, happy St. Pat's day. I'm (obviously) not Irish, but hey, when you can afford to pretend with the rest of the world, it's all good. Plus, I got to wear green makeup without my mom complaining! WOOT. However the luck of the Irish wasn't exactly with me...I kinda did bad on a midterm. Epic fail, for real. In my defense...half the class did bad too ,but that's not my point. I know I did bad, but I plan to fix it by the final. I'm making a major study group with people, and so far, three are interested. Together, we will slay the Art History dragon!

With that, time to study for Psychology, and pretend I understand it until I actually do. Fun times for me this week, right?

See you on the flipside...

Listening - A mix of this for my dance side, and that for my chill side. Both sides are happy, so no drama in my head. Win. Oh, and...commercials influance me too much sometimes.

Wearing - A pair of jeans I wore three times in the past 5 days. Seriously, they're my new fave jeans.

Wanting - The usual: shoes, makeup, chocolate and shows.

Thinking - Uh...someone needs me to shop for him.

So, some random thoughts -

Why do I get awesome ideas on the train or in the shower, and have to forget them later?

Boys - are they always this clueless?

When is summer coming? I'm over school already! :-)

Sometimes, I seriously think all my nail polishes are being crazy on purpose, and that's why they chip.

People are on their phones or iPods all the time, instead of talking to other people, I notice when I walk the hallways of school. It's weird. We use texting and IM's, but we don't actually talk to people in school...Technology brings us both together and apart.

People sometimes need style advice. Desperately. I'm willing to help...for concert tickets and cash, of course. :-)

I think yellow can really brighten your mood. So does a awesome grade on your midterm.

See you on the flipside.

Watching - CNET TV. The geek in me wants you to watch The Buzz Report. You'll learn things, and laugh doing so.

Wearing - A dress, for once! It's a babydoll one from Aeropostale, and it's pretty cute.

Wanting - NO SCHOOL. Crap, it's tommorow.

Thinking - Ohh, pretty iPod shuffle...WHAT? Controls on the earphones? FAIL.

So, my spring break is real close to ending...aka, I have classes tomorrow. I'm not totally happy, but I'm happy I got to refresh my batteries for a week. I was seriously drained. Now, I really need to get my focus face on, since I have papers and projects to deal with, and I'm ready for it. The endless reading and writing will suck, though. Blah it all, dudes. This will also mess with my beauty routine.

Yes, I have a routine, or I think I do. I try - main word being TRY - to put on moisturizer, usually from Mark, of course. It's good since it has SPF and all these antioxidants in it, so it's supposed to be good for your skin. Then, I go straight to makeup, but I don't use foundation, since...well, I'm kinda dark-skinned (if you haven't noticed, haha!), and it's pretty hard to find on my budget of barely any money. Once I go to Sephora one day, I'll find one, but for now, it's just eyeshadow (usually either browns or purples), eyeliner, mascara and lipgloss.

Oh, and I need new mascara! I bought one two weeks ago, but I don't trust it anymore, so I'm going back to Cover Girl's Lash Blast or maybe some Maybelline.  Not Great Lash, though. IT SUCKS. Never buy it. Lash Blast is pretty awesome but the brush is massive! You get used to it, though. Make up is fun, I believe.

Sadly, I need to also buy new headphones...since, well...mine broke. Probably my fault for swinging them around and wrapping them around my iPod, but them's the breaks. At least once I buy them, I have new music to listen to. Mel sent me new music from SS, AKA Jesse Ruben...and I LOVE IT. Go to his myspace. Do IT. DO IT NOW. You'll love it. :-)

With that, see you on the flipside. :-)

Oh, PS. Happy B-Day to Goldfish...if you know the joke, you know who I'm talking about. ;)

                                     To Do List for Monday -

1 - Set up my alarm clock again to 6 AM so I can go to the radio station on time.

2 - Get appointments to do observations for class.

3 - Try not to sleep in Psych class...again.

4 - Pretend to not be all sakhfldsaf when the person I'm sure dislikes me at the station tells me I'm doing something wrong...again.

5 - Spend ten minutes with my friends, laughing about inappropriate stuff.

6 - Go home...and wish vacation came back again.

See you on the flipside...

Watching - Youtube makeup gurus...they're wise and informed. Plus, they make me want to buy more makeup, and that's not a bad thing for me nor the ecconomy. Oh, and this.

Wearing - Pink and black...since I'm lazy, man.

Wanting - Chocolate, but I can't have it! Epic fail on me and Lent right now.

Thinking - Vacation = almost over. Fail.

So, I promised you a tale about me and my friends yesterday, but the event happened yesterday, and I was tired, so...yep. Sorry. I owe you, and I don't break IOU's. Let's start at the beginning. I was supposed to meet my friends at this train station, then near a building of glass. However, when I got off the train - me being early, unlike my buds - there were lot of glass buildings. A few minutes later, I end up spotting my male friend...across the street. Fail on me. We went to a bakery, had overtine, and when my other friend - his girlfriend, AWW - came over, sat in there and talked...and laughed. And talked, and laughed...you get the point.

Then we decided to walk along, trying to meet up with other people. Along the way, we spotted this chicken place. I knew about it online on a food blog, and even though it was fried and I knew I couldn't really have it...the foodie in me won. Hey, the skin was off, so it was fine. Plus, it was so yummy! My stomach thanked me for it. My legs hated me, though for later, since we ended up walking what seemed to be ten million blocks to meet up with one of my friends' other buddies. Two of us didn't know them, but they were really nice, and though my friend was insane too. Win for 4 sane people!

So, more walking, and we headed to this pool place/arcade. It had Guitar Hero! I didn't play it, but I'll be back, promise you that. Anyway, we played pool...and I sucked, even though I knew how to play it. I need practice.  I sunk a couple balls, though, so, not too horrible. It was fun, and I plan to do it again...after finals, of course. You should try to find a friend and just hang with them. It's fun, trust me.

See you on the flipside!

Top Five things I did today that made me too tired to write a real blog, making you wait until tomorrow:

1 - Go hang out with my friends.

2 - Drink overtine in a chinese bakery, talking about things that made me laugh too hard sometimes.

3- Eating fried chicken - without the skin for me - at a Asian fried chicken place, and it was GOOD. :-)

4 - Walking 15 blocks to go play pool, and lose twice.

5 - Having too much fun for one day.

See you on the flipside.

Watching - Some old school vids...gotta love the classics.

Wearing - Stripes. I like stripes. :-) I like red. I like stuff. Win.

Wanting - To go hang with my friends this week . I miss my little crew of awesome people.

Thinking - Uh...this flat iron is pretty amazing. My hair's so shiny.

So, apparently, I have plans tomorrow. I'm going to hang with my friends and play pool...but I don't know if I can go. When it comes to my fam, my parents barely let go to the city. I'll be lucky if they let me go somewhere else without them. They worry about me a lot, but I can see why. I'm their baby, the youngest. They're close to just locking the door and not letting me out except for church, school and doctor's appointments....kidding. Seriously, though, I want to go. I miss them. They're awesomeness in...people.

With that short little blog, I'm gonna go watch old video diaries and reminisce. Oh, memories...

See you on the flipside!

Top Five Things  I'm doing now:

1 - Writing this blog...because it's awesome.

2 - Listening to Lady Gaga, although I know I'll end up hating her REALLY soon. It's so close to being overplayed.

3 - Watching American Idol, not believing Allison's 16. Check her birth certificate. She's too good to be that age!

4 - Talking on AIM with people...since I need cool people to talk to.

5 - Flipping over to The Biggest Loser, since weight loss = drama.

Top Five Things I should be doing:

1 - Writing this blog. Duh.

2 - Cleaning my room...oops.

3 - Reading school stuff, since I need to catch up.

4 - Working on stuff for the radio station. I feel I need to help out.

5 - Hanging with the 'rents, since they miss me.

Top Five Things I'd rather be doing:

1 - Writing this blog...somewhere quiet. :-)

2 - Going to a show...but you knew that.

3 - Reading a good book. I miss reading something other than textbooks.

4 - Sleeping. Sleeping rocks.

5 - Something other than STAYING HOME. :-)

See you on the flipside...

Listening to - Addicted To Me: This is how I cope with not seeing a band I love - listening to them over and over on youtube at the show I'm not going to. It helps, since the song is awesome.

Wearing - Clothes! I like clothes, especially the clothes for lazy Mondays. 

Wanting - Well, you know what I want. You know what I need...or maybe you don't. Oh. you don't! My bad. Continue on, then. (Oh, if you got that referance, you win at life today.)

Thinking - Mel's home. My other friend is back from hiding. Life is good.

Monday didn't suck today. Why? Well, one friend is back from Cali, and the other back from being all invisible and making me worry. This means I get to not be all alone this Spring Break. I get my friends back, and therefore get my smile back. This all can be good, even with no shows to go to.

Yes, I'm still gripping about no shows for me. Yes, I need to get over it. Yes, i'm 19, and I shouldn't be whining about it. However...I WANNA A SHOW! I'll grow up, I promise...and yet, I'm listening to O-Town. I'm so mature, people, but in my defense, 'Liquid Dreams' was a classic in TV-made boy-band history. It's important. Like me going to a concert. See how it always goes back to concerts? I have issues...shame on me. I'm gonna go listen to more boy bands and Click, hoping it'll help, but it won't much except for the whole 'awesome' factor. 

See you on the flipside!

Watching - Jenny: TY, Ash for passing this along. Hi, shows I still can't go to. At least they sound good.

Wearing - Blue. Remember that Effle 64 song? I'm blue....let me not sing that. :-)

Wanting - Nothing, really. Thanks for asking, though.

Thinking - Yay, The Soup's on!

Sunday = too chill to worry about stuff more important. Really. I've been online all day, reading blogs and going on youtube. Seriously, that's it. Talk to me tomorrow, when I can think about important things...wait, Important Things with Demetri Martin's on! Gotta run. :-)

See you on the flipside.

P.S. - this short blog has been sponsered by Sunday boredom. I need entertainment, people. Like, now. Point me to cool things in the comments if you know any. Thank you! :-)

Top Ten Things I want to do this break:

1 - Sleep.

2 - Go out to Manhattan and explore.

3 - Hang with friends.

4  - Sleep.

5 - Catch up on school reading.

6 -Read some books.

7 -Sleep.

8 - Blog, duh.

9 - Find new recipes to mess with.

10 - Did I mention sleep?

See you on the flipside.

Watching - Makeup videos on youtube...it's like school, but fun. Learning should always be this awesome.

Wearing - American Eagle all over. I know my loyalities. :-)

Wanting - To hear from my friend who disappered two days ago, and only been online for an hour a day, making me all worried like a mama. I miss her. :-(

Thinking - Yay, Mel has enough internet to read this blog! :-) Win for her.

NO MORE CLASS! Spring Break, anyone? Si, Oui, Da, YES! Party time, dudes. Plus, the B- I got on my Ethics class (which I though I would get lower there), and my last class being cancalled, life is sweet. SWEET! Again...party. Sleeping in, getting my nails done, hanging with mom around Manhattan...win. Oh, and yes, I do like hanging out with my mom. She's a good mom. She buys me hoodies and lipgloss.

Now, I have plans for summer...already. I'm a quick cookie that way. My mom and I decided I should go to makeup school during the summer, and I think it would be fun. I don't want to be a makeup artist, but it's a cool skill to have to spread around to my friends. I'll pretty up my buddies, one lipgloss slick at a time. Win for all. Now, if only I can get a show or a job or both involved in this, and summer '09 would win so hard. :-)

With that, see you on the flipside...AKA, tomorrow. :-)

Watching - Making The Band 4....musical drama, anyone?

Listening - Diva: apparently, it's the female version of a hustler! You learn something new everyday. Oh, and must mention - Hook Me Up... it's the truth.

Wearing - A shirt I thought I lost so long ago...yay for discovery!

Wanting - A concert....from a band I love so much, thank you.

Thinking - NO MORE MIDTERMS! WIN.

So, I'm free from the embrace of midterm hell. I'm FREE! Insert party music here, people. Anyway, I would celebrate for real, but there's one little issue I have....called  "The Click five are doing shows in NY that I can't go to since I'm 19". I'm slightly resentful, as you can see. Darn 21+ shows. I'll live, though. They always end up doing shows for the underaged kids in the end....hopefully on a Saturday? Please? I'll love you forever? :-)

Now to a topic I enjoy fully - makeup! As you know - or may not know, but will know now - I am a Mark Representative. If you don't know what Mark IS, just click the link. You know you want to. Anyway, as a Rep, I totally get access to a lot of makeup, and with the income...I end up buying more. Right now, I'm in LOVE with this one lip gloss called Glossblossom. It looks clear, but slide them on your lips, and BAM! It's the perfect pink. Dudes, if you buy just one thing from Mark, make it that. It'll make you all happy inside.

However...I have a secret....I'm cheating on Mark a little bit...with Urban Decay. Don't hate me. Their eyeshadows are so bright, so lush, so awesome, you might cheat on your makeup too. Oh, and their Primer Potion = godsend. Every eyeshadow in the world thanks it for making them look....better. I <3 it.

OK, my makeup indulging self is done for tonight...just for tonight, though. ;-)

See you on the flipside...

Playing - FOB Trail : it'll steal your motivation and time to do anything else. Thank you, Fall Out Boy...release this right when I have midterms.

Wearing - Happy Bunny. The bunny is always right. You should focus on me.

Wanting - This week over with!

Thinking - Stop killing rockstars by accident and work on remembering Monet's contributions to Art, missy!

In news today, I am easily distracted. I like games and IM'ing my friends a little too much. Oh, and magazines. Love magazines. I need help. Or, you know...sanity. Fail on me. Well, at least I finished my first two midterms, and I feel I'll do well in both of them grade-wise. I just hope Art doesn't screw me up. Darn my proffessor being anti-multiple choice. GRR.

This will be short...since, again, easily distracted. I need to study, remember? Tomorrow, I'll be back to normal...if I ever was normal to start with.

See you on the flipside.

Listening - Disturbia - Wait...these are BOYS singing this! Wait, it's just The Cab doing a cover of the hit song by Rihanna. Fine by me. Carry on.

Wearing - This really soft American Eagle shirt...seriously, it's so soft. Woot cotton!

Wanting - Not to study.

Thinking - I need to study. Crap.

So, I'm still blogging, since I made a written promise to do so. I am so insane sometimes. Plus, Mel reminded me, so yep. Anyway, my day was normal: went to my first class, went down to the station, saw a guy with a box on his...uh...well, please refer to this video for more clarfication. Went down to get lunch, saw multiple Britney Spearses (is that the right way to say it??). See, normal! OK, so my radio station sponsered a contest giving away Britney tickets, and as such, we gave them away in a special way. Good thing I wasn't asked to work that event. I would be laughing too much.

Besides that, I filled in for some of my coworkers for a show, went to study group and tried not to sleep in Art class...again. Yes, I am so boring. I guess I need more coffee...or more sleep. Even better, how about NO MIDTERMS! I have two tomorrow and I'm so not happy about it. Time to go harcore study girl. Now...go do something awesome. You deserve it. At least you don't have midterms.

See you on the flipside.

Watching - The Bachelor: After the Final Rose, because drama is fun...to watch. Poor guy, though...these ladies will not be happy.

Wearing - Old Navy, baby. It's cool again, remember?

Wanting - This headache to go away! Give me the Advil please.

Thinking - This snow will suck tomorrow when it comes to commuting.

Hi from snow day central! Instead of playing in the snow, I was setting up a printer and router for the new computer. Darn me being a techie. Darn it all. At least I can blog from my laptop now instead from the living room. Woot freedom. I was also studying for my midterms....again. I have to pass, man. Passing is cool. :-)

With that said, I'm gonna go, since my head is going crazy....the pain sucks. See you on the flipside, kiddies.

Watching - TV, with the 'rents. Woot.

Wearing - Tinklebell on my shirt. She's so sassy. I'm such a kid sometimes.

Wanting - No school...wait, got that. Win.

Thinking - No school, no problem. Win...again.

So, if you didn't notice, I didn't blog yesterday. I wasn't sick, and I didn't forget...my computer decided to DIE on me and my family. We're trying to revive that one, but we bought a new, shiny one and we're happy. Woot - we got Vista....nah. Vista sucks, but it's new, so whatever. Let's hope I can keep doing this on the newbie, and we can somewhat revive the old one so I can get my files back! I have pics and music, people...even though I have it all on my laptop. :-)

So, thanks to snow storms coming over here, I have no school tomorrow. Yay for not waking up early and dealing with the trains. Boo to not seeing my friends and hanging with them. Sad, but that's the tradeoff. I'll just study, sleep and blog...such is my life. 

See you on the flipside, and enjoy the snow day! :-)

Watching - Back Here : The British are good with pop music. BBMak were the perfect example. Why, oh why, didn't they blow up here like they deserved?

Wearing - Gray. Well, just a gray t-shirt, but someone I know would approve, so yay.

Wanting - Shoes. Cute shoes. I don't know why, but, yep. Shoes.

Thinking - Midterms are next week? Crap.

Well, I'm back from...yesterday. Nothing much happened between then and now. I'm keeping my 'no junk food' promise, much to my friends' surprise and tempting with chocolate....evil. Wait, there was something else I need to mention...MIDTERMS. Oh, yeah. I'm having midterms next week, sadly. Two on Wednesday, one on Thursday, and me being a mess all week. Enjoy those freak out blogs when they happen. Seriously, I hate this time of the year, since I have to jampack information in my head, even if I know it. I'm on a bit of a 'study-or-no-A' kick. Call me crazy, but I like passing.

Spring break is the week after though, and I'm excited for that! Sleep, hanging out with friends all day, and sleep: the American dream for a 19 year old. Sadly, my dream of seeing OK Go on the 8th is not going to happen, though. I didn't mention it, but they're having a show in Brooklyn next Sunday, and I wanted to go...but it got sold out from under me. In their words, What To Do...I'll live, though. More sleep for me! Please expect Jesse Ruben-type references that day. ;)

Until tomorrow, I'll see you on the flipside. <3

Listening - Be OK - Love this song! LOVE. More importantly, it makes sense in my life right now.

Wearing - Red. A lot of red. IDK why, but it looked good when I woke up this morning.

Wanting - Makeup, but I can't spend that much. Gotta save, hon.

Thinking - Am I crazy for doing this challenge? Yeah, probably.

So, hi! What's up? I'm alright, just blogging...obviously. Anyway, I'm ranting a little bit, only because if I don't, someone might end up getting angry at me, and then I'll get mad, and making a Scorpio mad is bad. Trust me, my anger is not cute. It's more "Hulk" sized. Not pretty. Anyway, remember that chick from the station who I believe hates my guts? Yeah....this is about her. She kinda fails. I think she just reserves all conversations to me to just complaining about what I do. It's just so uncool. The fail of this is major.She needs to be a little nicer, and a lot less critical on me. :-(

In positive news, I've decided to blog every day for Lent. Yes, 40 days of me blabbing out my soul to you! I'm insane, am I? Also, I'm giving up lattes and other junky foods I've been indulging in this semester, in order to turn over a new - healthier - leaf. Again, I'm crazy. I'll still want my coffee, so the plain stuff for me. Woot.

With that said, I'll see you on the flipside...aka, tomorrow. <3

Hi, guys! I'm forgoing the regular post, for me...doing lists. Awesome, right?

Top five things I want this year:

1 - A smaller waistline...or actually, better health. Both come with the workout package, right?

2 - A date! Just one would surfice. 

3 - Confidence to ask someone on a date! Hi, I'm a wimp. Nice to meet you.

4 - An iPod Touch. Yes, my friends have one, and complain about it, but I want it!

5 - A job to buy said iPod without asking mom.

Top five concerts I want to see, but has yet to be invented (in random order):

1 - OK Go and Ludo. IDC if it's a little odd. It would be amazing!

2 - Fall Out Boy, Cobra Starship and The Cab. Granted 2/3 of these bands are going on tour together, but give me The Cab in this one, and I'll pay the ticket prices myself...with my imaginary money. 

3 - The Click Five, with Jesse Ruben. Oh, Mel knows why I want this, but I'll tell everyone else: It'll be AMAZING. Period. Trust me. Enjoy melting, then rocking, then melting again!

4 - Kanye West and Lupe Fiasco. One is coming to my school in April, one...isn't. Just give me the rap concert of the year, please...and add Jay-Z to that too!

5 - Beyonce...period. Hey, who else can compete with her? Wait...Rihanna and Ciara! Yes, please!

Five things my friends need in order to be a friend to me:

1 - Humor. Anyone who can get my jokes/insanity is a winner.

2 - Sensitivity. I get emotional, and you need to be a little gentle to me.

3 - Intelligence. Smart people only need apply.

4 - Time. At least have a little time for me to at least talk to you!

5 - Awesome shoes. Hey, I'm a girl! Forgive me. 

Top five reasons I'm doing lists for a blog:

1 - Too lazy to make paragraphs and coherrent thoughts.

2 - Too tired to do above.

3 - I'm im'ing someone right now, and I don't want them to sign off on me!

4 - I'm looking for shoes. Really. :-)

5 - Because it's my blog, duh!

See you on the flipside..<3

Dear band-whose-name-shall-not-be-used-to-protect-the-innocent-and-not-pleased,

Hi. What's with the 21+ shows, dudes? Yeah, you didn't think I would notice. Good thing I have buddies who tell me these things before I could even check. Anyway...I'm not exactly happy by this. I mean, I understand the rational over this - you know your fan base is a little younger, and you don't want to play the newer stuff to us. Less pressure, I guess. Plus, you probably want to get loose, go crazy, try different things. These shows are Guinea pigs. However...

We - pertaining to those under 21 - feel completly left out. Dudes, do you want us to depend on youtube for concerts now? Between overseas shows and these, I'm feeling like I'll never see you guys live. It's kinda dishearting. I know about the few non-21+ shows, but still...it sucks. I'm in NY, in school, and kinda deprived musically. I'm not happy. A lot of people are. You can't blame us. We want shows!'

Saturday shows, all ages shows...shows, period. I hope this is just a one time thing, because as a fan, I want just another chance to see you, and not hope to fast forward my life two years to do so. I still love you guys, though. :-)

See you on the flipside,

Danica. <3

Listening: Pony (it's ok) - I got this for free on iTunes, and I reallllllly like it. Go listen to it now. It'll make you happy.

Wearing: A pink polo...I went to church and forgot to change back to normal clothes, so, yeah.

Wanting: A date. Really. Anyone single you think I would like? ;)

Thinking: I should've convinced my friends to go INLINE skating instead of ice skating. I know how to do that better!

So, hiya! How are you guys? School sucks? Boy issues? Life being annoying? Yeah...same boat. I went back on Wednesday, and already I feel like I'll be working a LOT this year. I need to do that, anyway. Gotta get me some A's, right? At least I have my little documentry project to enjoy. Yes, I'm actually working on it, getting interviews and working on capturing little moments. Yay for not procrastinating! 

Anywayyyyyyy, what did I do yesterday? Uh...go ice skating with my friends, fall down 5 times and spoke to a cute boy? No. I did that, and got cupcakes. Don't forget the cupcakes. God, they were yummy. Cappichino-flavored cupcakes with chocolate chips on top of the frosting = instant sugar rush. If you're in Manhattan, go to Crumbs Bakeshop. Do it. It'll make you happy, if not realllly hyper.

OK, now for important stuff, like my skating. Well...I hugged the wall a lot, hung onto my friends and accidently to random strangers. I was the first to fall...then the third, making someone go down with me. Then I dragged another down, and fell on top of her. I would lie and say I was awesome, but obviously...not really. It was fun, though! I eventually got the hang of it, and I was just speeding ahead of people. Made me smile a lot. Oh...and I saw a boy...a cute boy.

Now, if you read this blog, or know me well, I don't talk about boys...unless they're in a band, and usually, it's not in the way I'm talking now. However, I'm 19 and single in New York City. People, sometimes, a girl needs to be giddy over a guy. He was outside the rink with his friends and I skated past him and he smiled at me, and I smiled at him...cute, cute, cute. I then proceeded to go to my friend, show him to her, and listen to my friend tease me about him often.

Eventually, after all the silence and smiling and me freaking out to my buds, I went to them to ask him to come over so I could talk. I dorked out slightly, but eventually, I got my mouth to move enough to talk to him...until the skate guard told us to move on. Sad. I didn't even get his number! I blame them for that. Still, it proved to me that I'm not a total loser with dudes after all. Now to do that by myself in school...

Before you say anything else though, YES, I did see the inauguration, and it was awesome. I refuse to talk about politics here or in real life, because it brings drama, but no one could deny how cool it was to see a black man - no, a black family - end up in this postion. It's like The Cosby Show 2009-2012! This means I can't exactly slack off on anything anymore, right? Oh, well...I'll deal, with a smile.

Now, if you need me, I'm gonna listen to awesome music, like Silver Sharpie. If you don't know that, it's ok. I'll explain my adoration about this in another blog. If you do know...you're Mel. She loves him, too.

See you on the Flipside. <3

Listening - FOB's Folie À Deux, which is pretty damn awesome, and is on some form of repetition on my iPod.

Wearing - Black. Everything. It's slimming!

Wanting - A little less snow, a little more vacation time.

Thinking - uh....I do have a blog. I should write stuff there instead of complaining on AIM to my friends about my life.

So...hi. Happy new year? OK, I'm late; sue me, will ya? Just wait until my bro passes the bar....and goes to law school. That'll take a while. Let's chat in 2013. :-) Anyway, vacation has been...meh-ish. The only real highlights was the time I went to Manhattan with one of my new, cool friends, and hearing from another who I haven't heard from in six months. Needless to say, while my break wasn't exactly awesome, I'd rather not go back to school. Then again...who does? :-)

Well, I kinda have to go back, since I'm planning something interesting with the radio station I work at in school - a documentary on the newer members. Granted I only have a Flip camera - the cute, small ones that instantly plugs in to your computer and lets you send it straight to Youtube - and very limited film editing experience, but I already know how to compose a story out of a good cast of characters, and trust me, these kids are pretty awesome. It'll be good to have a good challenge. Pray I can finish it, though.

So, yay...I blogged. People had been asking me to do it, and I do feel slightly guilty for not doing it, but when I have a block, it's hard to remove it. This one was based off motivation...or my lack of it. Forgive me, for I'll try to do better. Now, I'm gonna listen to rap and totally go back to the 90's for a second...when music was pretty awesome. 

See you on the flipside...<3

Watching - Kiss My Sass : Darn you, Cobra Starship! I'll never get this out of my head now.

Wearing - A oversized red sweater. What's with me and red?

Wanting - Ideas! Can I borrow yours'?

Thinking - Why am I so braindead now? Fail.

I'm on break from school offically until Jan. 21. Totally awesome, right? Well, it's good that I have no more classes and I can sleep normally now, but now I need something to do! I could start with writing my stories again, but my ever occuring bout of writer's block prevents me from doing it. It prevents me from thinking straight and all my ideas - if I have any - tends to fade away in an instant. If there was a miracle cure for this, I would pay a lot for it. I need to go away! I want to write again! I want to sound somehow coherant and interesting, not like a zombie with lack of details!

Now to something completly different. Me and my friends are talking about you. Well, if you're in a band we like, we're talking about you. Not in a BAD way. No, you give us music, so of course we like you. It's just...you entertain us, on and off the music scene, so we talk about you, and we laugh. Oh, and it's not just us. It's a lot of us. Just keep writing blogs, being awesome and making music. It'll make us mighty happy...me more, though. It might just make me get ideas to write, and I would LOVE that. Help a sister out.

See you on the flipside - and try to deal with the snow if you have a lot like me!

<3

I'm going to do this a little differently from how I've been writing recently, if you don't mind. I don't think talking about what I'm wearing is that important right now. There's way too many things more important than fashion and what's on TV. The world around us is changing, full of things we never thought would happen in our generation. We thought we never would have a depression or a recession in our time, but now the economy is, in a word, tanking. We never wondered about terrorism, then 9/11 came, and everything else came with it. We all thought there was no more slavery, but you hear stories about women and children all over the world (even in the states) being slaves. Then, there is genocide.

I wanted to support Save Darfur after being assigned to do a speech on it my freshman year, and even before then, I knew a bit about it. People are dying, guys, just in case you don't know about it. Innocent children, women and men are either dying or hiding from others who want them dead. It is devestating, to be honest. I hate thinking about it, but it's real. Then I read about what is happening in Cambodia...and it started hurting again, and badly. Women are hiding from men who are using them in the worse possible ways, and will be forever broken by this. I almost cried twice reading what others saw there, and I knew I would never truly understand what is happening there, or even in Darfur. I will never really know how these people feel on a daily basis.

We're privileged here, guys. We have computers, iPods, the internet and TV. We have houses to live in, and schools to go to...but even then, there are millions of homeless out there, and a lot of people are close to losing their homes too. How lucky are we?

I don't want to sound like I know everything, but I don't...trust me, I don't. Just a couple days ago, I was annoying my mom about getting me an iPod Touch or new flat boots, and talking to my friends about buying Fall Out Boy concert tickets. Yeah, I'm no saint, but I do want to help. What can I do, though? Well, for one, I can try to tell you guys what's going on, and pass you along to other people who know more than I do...but that would be more preachy than...well, most of this blog. I guess I can do what I can, and you can do what you can. It doesn't matter if it's as small as putting 25 cents in a Salvation Army bucket, or as big as organizing an event to help in Africa. As long as we do...something and not stand around and not know a thing, the world will change. It's just up to us, right?

See you on the flipside.

Watching - Desperate Housewives with mom. Campy drama makes me happy.

Wearing - My 'I'm With The Band' t-shirt. Oh, how I wish it was true.

Wanting - NO FINALS. Can't they just give me A's and move on? Win-win for everyone!

Thinking - about this blog...for once!

Here's a confession for you - I wasn't popular at all when I was a kid. I only had one friend in elementry school, one in Jr. High, and - OMG - two in high school, but none were my best friends, honestly. They were good, but not my best. I spent most of my time by myself, reading and not exactly being a happy camper. Life for me was mostly solitary. Then I went online - and everything changed. The ones younger than me are like my little sisters. I gotta be overprotective and give them advice. When they need help, I'm there. The ones older than me - since I'm the one who likes extremes - I can go to myself when I need help...or just go stare at actors and musicans we can't possibly have. It's always fun. 

They keep me sane, keep me happy, and with all our inside jokes, silly videos and devotion to each other, it really doesn't matter that we all don't live in the same state and the internet is our main route of communication. They are my girls, and they're staying that way for a while.

With all that sap, I'm out of here. See you on the flipside.

Watching - Nothing...again. Same ol', same ol'.

Wearing - Ripped jeans that I should throw out but I love them.

Wanting - Something to do...you know, besides this blog.

Thinking - About my evil finals. They're coming...

I feel like there are two major parts of me, both wanting me to make choices for my life. The independent loner, and the people pleaser. One wants friends so bad, the other doesn't want help and needs to do her own thing. They fight against each other, wanting me to just pick their side. It kinda drives me crazy sometimes.

I think in the end, I want to help everyone who needs me. I hate people when they're depressed. I don't like my friends turning into a mess when their lives start messing up on them, and I just want to save them from that. I know I can't fix everything, but I want to. I hate depression. Speaking as someone who has her own bouts of sadness, I can't deal with it myself, so having it affect my friends kill me. It just sucks I can't do more sometimes than say 'It's going to be ok', but it is what it is. I just hope in the end they're ok and try to make them laugh. That's all I can do.

OK, before this gets more emo than I can deal with, I'll end it. Next time, I'll just make fun of people in bands and the jeans they wear...especially one who totally stole mine. Fail on him.

See you on the flipside.

Watching - Nothing, actually. Youtube failed me this week.

Wearing - My new favorite brown sweater...ok, it's my mom's, but who cares? I look good in it.

Wanting - Starbucks...more Starbucks.

Thinking - About my last day of classes today! Woot.

My semester went really quickly this time. Then again, doesn't school usually go this fast? The day takes forever, the week gets quicker, and before you know it, it's December! Frankly, I wish I did better in some topics than others, and I wish I was more open about my opinions with other people, but I can't change things much anymore except for my finals. Oh, yes, it might be my last day of classes, but next week, I have three days of finals! Fail, eh? I'll be at home, studying math problems until I die if you need me.

Oh, in other news, what DID I get that person I was DREADING to give for Secret Santa? A lil' something I like to call...THE WRITER'S PACK. An Agatha Christie novel - she writes mystery books - a notebook for ideas, a pen - Winnie The Pooh, kids - and chocolate, since my mom said I should give her candy. Always listen to the person paying for your gift to give to someone. Oh, and I got a bear from my SS. Hey...I'm a softie! :-)

No, she didn't look at it yet...probably because it's me. Whatever. I did something nice, and if she doesn't like it, or even if she does, I did good. So, yeah. With that said...I'm gonna drink my latte and be all happy, waiting for tonight to continue our nightly 'cookie chats'. Party time, I say.

See you on the flipside...

Watching - Happy Thanksgiving... 

Wearing - My Aero hoodie and my red jeans...oooh, red!

Wanting - Browines and pumpkin pie...not good for the waistline, but yummy in the tummy.

Thinking - Final on Tuesday? Oh, God...must...watch...webisodes....to calm down!

So, I'm in MA, the day after thanksgiving, and full of food. There's still leftovers to feed people for a month! Anyone want to come over? It was fun, and full of food and family, like usual. 

Now for the real reason I'm writing this blog...someone needs to be president of Rock n' Roll...and I have a very good person for the job. While I shall not mention his name (to protect the innocent...and me), he knows what we want from our bands, and is trying to make strides to do so. He will fight for the fans, defend the good melodies from evil, and rock the house like never before.

That speech he had yesterday inspired me to fight for the music. Radio cannot stop us! MTV and other video outlets can't stop us! Not with this man leading the way...and hopefully he picks a very tall, handsome, talented young man as vice president. Anything for the fangirl vote! 

With that said, I'm gonna either study or go on youtube...or both! See you on the flipside...and don't eat too much, ok? 

Watching - Time Machine, May 7th, 2006 - Anyone want to be cool enough to tell me what color shirts they're wearing? (Quick hint...it's green.)

Wearing - A green t-shirt promoting Turtle Wax...don't ask me why, it's cute.

Wanting - More coffee. Yummy, yummy coffee.

Thinking - About my early Thursday wake up call ...

Maybe it was the coffee I had today or the fact that I'm off school for the rest of the week, but I'm surprisingly hyper today! OK, maybe it's the coffee. Anyway, how are you guys? Planning anything good for Thanksgiving, AKA, our excuse to eat like there is no tomorrow? Me, I'm heading up to my uncle and aunt's house in MA with the fam early Thursday. Let's hope the weather and traffic doesn't totally screw us over from some turkey.

In other news, the radio station is having a Secret Santa, and guess who I got? The one person in the world I never ever want to spend money on since she totally hates me, I think. Needless to say, I'm stumped, since I feel that if I get her something, she just won't like it anyway since it's coming from me. However, I'm naturally a people pleaser, and want her to at least think it's pretty good. Oh, and my sensible mind says to just buy her the thing at the bare minimum I can spend. With that said, could you help? She writes mystery stories, most likely likes nail polish and is pretty authoritative... no wonder she wants to be a cop. Help?

With that said, I'm going to be telling my friend how wrong she is about a color of a shirt, and have fun doing it, since we're dorks. Dorks are cool. Don't diss dorks. See you on the flipside.

Watching - Will It Blend?

Wearing - My red school hoodie...comfy!

Wanting - Sleep, coffee, or my iPod. Or all three. 

Thinking - About everything.

I've been thinking about way too much stuff recently. Maybe school has been affecting me more than I'd like, but it is what it is. However, something stopped me in my tracks yesterday for no reason, and I have no idea why. I won't explain what happened that gave way to this, but apparently what I've been feeling for so long has finally been uncovered. 

Pulling away from people you're close to sucks. When you're friends with a person for so long and stuff changes so you don't talk as much, it hurts to hear from them again, thinking they're a stranger. It's like you're not friends anymore, just....people. I can't deal with that, personally, and I don't like talking much about it, since I'm kinda dealing with it. You just want your friend to be that again, but I think life has a reason why these things happen. Either you're supposed to fight for this friendship, or you let it go. I, personally, have no idea where to go. I just want it normal again.

However, I do have amazing friends I got who tell me I'll be ok, and make me laugh and make me think. They're amazing, really. Without them, life would be a much boring place. Amen for crazies. :-) Now, if you need me, I'm gonna spite Twilight and go watch stupid videos with my friends at the station. See you on the flipside. :-)

Watching - The Cab - Bounce

Wearing - Lots of layers...LOTS.

Wanting - More coffee, maybe?

Doing - Studying/reviewing for an exam

Thinking - too much.

I - foolishly - forgot to thank Cassie for letting me join up, which is rude of me, honestly. You always have to thank the ones who give you opportunities like these, so…thank you! Anyway, my day is bound to be a little interesting today – pot luck at the station. Stupidly, I forgot to bring my camera, so you won’t be able to see what I made…and what I’m bound to eat. Oops!

In other news…what am I planning for this space? I could just complain about school, but that’ll tire me. I could just do lists all day, but again…I get bored really quickly. Needless to say, I studied blogging styles from others here (especially a blonde-haired one who shall not be named to protect the innocent – me) and realized something. I could copy all I want from people, and basically it would be fine except for one thing – it wouldn’t be me. So, that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll write about whatever I want, however I want. Being myself might confuse some people sometimes, but if I have to deal with it all 19 years of my life, you can deal with it for a few paragraphs.

So, that’s really it for today. I just wanted to write a second one, really…ha,ha. See you on the flipside!

Answer #1 - Someone who reads this blog in interest and wondering the answer to the second question.

Answer #2 -

I'm Dani, nice to meet you.

Actually, my name's Danica, but everyone calls me Dani. 

Well, anyone who's cool.

I'm 19.

I'm a college student - sophmore. 

I'm not a fan of homework.        

I've lived in NY all my life, and plan to stay here as long as possible.

I'm the youngest of two.

I have a lot of cousins, though.

My family may be annoying at times, but I adore them.

I only have three enemies right now in my life, and one of them is myself.

I have good friends, but I don't know if I have a best friend yet.

A lot of my friends are younger than me, so I feel like they're surrogate little sisters.

A message board and the band behind it is responsible for changing a portion of my life.

I do feel like I'm developing a sountrack to my life.

I work at the college radio station as a DJ.

I am a fanatical Backstreet Boys fan, even at my age. 

I doubt I will recover from it.

I'm quite shy around people I don't know.

My friends know I can be crazy and hyper when needed.

I'm smarter and more foolish than I look.

I doubt myself way more than I'd like to.

Jealousy is one of my worse flaws.

I'm sarcastic around people I hang with.

I think I'm a nice girl, even if one or two disagree.

I wrote in a diary during my preteen days.

I have another blog, but I don't write in there anymore.

I get bored easily.

My iPod is my partner in crime.

I wanted to be in the fashion industry before changing my mind.

I still want a whole bunch of designer clothes in my closet, though.

I want a great pair of black flat boots on the cheap.

I crush on rock stars and actors way more than I should.

My imagination is alive and well.

Writing saves me from the ordinary.

Drama should be left on screen, not off.

I hate planes.

And heights.

And bridges.

And mean people.

I never had a boyfriend.

I'm willing to wait.

I sell Mark makeup to my family and save my earnings for gadgets and more makeup.

I love Youtube.

I want to impact the world one way or the other.

I make lists when I don't want to write in paragraphs. 

OK, I assume I made my point, so, hey! I promise you I'll lay off the lists, and just be myself. That's all I can be, anyway. See you on the flipside.