ok so today is the first day of the brooks brothers 25% off friends and family event. nd boy let me tell you ive never loathed my job more. but i really shouldnt because in like 3 months time i wont have a job because we are closing this facility nd its moving to enfield ct.

**may 26, 2010**

that was written almost a month ago. we found out that we start 'letting people go' august 14. i dont know how i feel about this. but i do know that we have 2 MASSIVE sales pretty much back 2 back of eachother. nd well that will be probably like 2 or 3 checks of wonderful overtime. which i think ill use to go see my boy. nd hopefully itll be during a rave or something. i wanna see him dj so bad. lol like we talk about it nd stuff but its kinda like i can only get the time off for a weekend nd if hes playin a show it would suck bc hed be workin then there is that after party that im sure hed be doin as well..so id see him like 12 hours? lol

but with that being said, its been brought to my attention on numerous occasions by a few different people that i lost my edge. nd ive changed. now this i can kinda see bc well i went from listenin to some heavy stuff nd goin to ozzfest to like not haha i mean i still heavily enjoy the music but i started to hang with people where it wasnt as accepted so i kinda toned it down. nd in tuen doing that kinda just killed that part of me. i listen to old skool stuff like flaw nd ill nino nd ra nd i just kinda wonder who id be today if i still listened to that all the time nd didnt really listen to 'mainstream music'..i mean if i still listened to heavy music would i have started to listen to tc5 nd if i never started listenin to them i woulda never stumbled upon atom or nate camapny, nd let me tell u although id probably be a lil bit richer i wouldnt know the talented and awesome people i do now. well i mean i *might* have but i dont think id know them as well as i do. which when i think about it, its kinda scary bc ive become pretty close to loads of people.  but alas i gonna give the heavy stuff ago again and see what comes of it. maybe my 'edge' will return but ill still be who i am now, just with the heavy stuff introduced. we shall see how this goes...

ive also joined a gym, but the main person i was supposed to go with has kinda bailed out on it so a replacement is in the works! lol well see how this goes as well!! lol

kbai♥

im currently in this chat with the boy nd this other guy bri nd well all thats played is i dont eve know. lol its full of beats nd well i havent listened to this music in idk close to 10 years nd now its like crack nd i need to listen to it..its bad lol nd i have the urge to go clubbin but clubs here suck almost if not better then a hoover..i should honestly be goin to sleep right now but yeah im still all upset about the days events. nd im just not feelin sleep yet,, i gotta work tomorrow for 10 hours nd worry about the boy. -_- sometimes i wish i could kinda just block things from memory but it just doesnt work. i mean i can do it to an extent but then im just like crap nd i break down completely nd just cry. ive cried alot in the past few days. nd well it sucks. ive also found a reason to be more in love with fellow blogger nate campanys song ocean blue..♥ ill have to update again tomorrow cos im quite knackered. lets hope i can remember too. im placein my money on i wont haha unless i do it at work hmmm gnight all

k bai^♥

updating from my sexy new enV touch that is..if it does i shall try nd update more but lack of internet sucks nd i also forget i have this at times..but i shall try more! ox

2 weeks til my freakin birthday! whoa.
ill be 23. this is kinda scary. im 2 yrs away from 25! ew


i dont really have high expectations for my actual birthday.
lets just say i have a track record of horrible birthdays. lol
it either always always ALWAYS rains. or something happens to kill it.
like this one year my bday fell on easter nd well i went to my room to answer my phone nd well my cake was eaten in that time frame i was gone maybe a half hour..like straight up candles still in the box nd cake 3/4 eaten. then i was told my present was upstairs so i go upstairs only to find my present unwrapped [not even in a bag or even the bag from the store they got it from] just sitting on the bed. or the one year i went to the cheesecake factory with my one best friend. nd well we wound up getting it to go cos she had a date nd was running late, not to mention though the whole time we were out her ex was callin her nd makin her feel like shit therefore i had to make sure she was ok. nd it never fails that when i pick a place to eat i gotta make sure EVERYONE in my family likes it. so that leads us to only eat at a handful of the SAME places wed eat if it werent a birthday. so well see if this year is any different.

BUT

i am however EXTREMELY excited for my awesomely huge birthday party at fatbaby on the lower east side. its definitely gonna be amazing! haha my friends matt nd lisa who live in chelsea are helpin me with the planning nd everything. nd well last year i had a party at angels nd kings nd it was fun. i can only imagine what this year is gonna have in store. only cos we got VIP pretty much all to ourselves nd we didnt have to give them an arm nd a leg. nd well i just cant wait. cos itll be partying hard, kinda like a rock star.

but with my last party i realized who really cared by who showed up. i have friends that like to make it all about them nd then when it comes time to u theyre like eh oh well. nd well im over it. this year ive given everyone more then enough notice on when my bday party will be nd well if u couldnt figure out away to come oh well i guess i never really mattered to u. nd u can bet i wont be at ur next bday party. its no surprise i hate places in jersey. so of course my party will be somewhere in the city. nd if thats the only reason some ppl arent gonna come out, thats lame. cos this place is awesome nd well its open til 4am! when places here close at what 2am? 3am the latest.

but i shall have to be better at blogging nd try nd not bitch nd moan in my blog but it feels way better to get all this out. nd its good to know that if any one does read this it helps to stop the traffik

k bai^♥

<sup>last night we had a nice coating of snow. nd so me nd my cousin kyle nd one of my best friends courtney decided we were gonna go sledding behind the community center in my town..well it was an awesome idea. but we decided to go down on our tummys first nd well the sped down the hill nd slide onto parking lot..nd i, well lets just say i went face first into a snowbank nd my head hit some ice..NOT cool. but we continued to sled..haha then we went over to jylls to play some wii bowling before heading to big shots for some poker..nd kyle was wearing the goggles then decided he didnt wanna wear em anymore sooo i wore them lol nd my oh my that was sooo hilarious. i seriously looked like i just stepped into a lodge after snowboarding or something haha

also ive realized i can only form coherent thoughts to write a blog while listening to 90's cheesie pop music..
here me out here folks..
my first entry was written while listening to spice girls..
this one is being written listening to five
[who has to be my ALL time favorite boy band from that time frame, dont get me wrong i loved nsync nd bsb but i have a HUGE soft spot for them british boys haha]
i wonder whos next..
bbmak
hanson
sclub7
bsb
nsync
b*witched
LFO
i mean really the possibilities are endless


ps. dont let you go by five is very bsb/nsyncie
true story..
nd their cover of 'we will rock you' is very um odd?
im confused its not exactly a cover. but its not an original song..hmm

but seeing as though its almost 4am im goin to sleep!

k bai</sup> ♥

<sup>actually wanted to blog on the one love for quite sometime now. nd now that im actually a blogger on the site im kinda at a loss for words lol but i keep putting off the first blog. nd if i continue to put it off it wont get written. so im listenin to the spice girls nd thinking what it would be like to be the 12 yr old girl i was when they came out. lol i mean life was good. all i h ad to worry about was homework nd who i was gonna hang with after school. lol my times have changed. im turning 23 in pretty much a month nd its not that im unhappy with my life but its kinda the same routine thing..ive been lookin for a job since nov nd have had absolutely no luck nd to top it off my unemployment runs out on my bday..fun times right? lol ive been considering once i find a job to just save like mad nd move to the city. i spend damn near all my time nd what money i have there anyway might as well just live there so i dont always have to take the last train home nd have these escape from new york stories..dont get me wrong they are fun but my god are they stressful..

but last night had to be one of my favorite new york adventures..

so last night at like 1130 my friend kyle calls me nd is like so whats goin on for tonight i was like um nothing haha [previously in the night a whole bunch of us decided that we were gonna rent a hotel room to play board games nd stuff cos none of us could decide where to go, well that all fell through] so he was like well its still early im comin to get u then were gettin frank then we are goin to a bar..i was like ok why not beats sittin home on a friday night..we wound up goin to this bar near franks house [complete whole in the wall dive skeezy bar] they have a few beers [i cant stand the smell of it], then we decided to go to the bar like 15 mins away where they had half price ladies drinks so that was pretty sweet..well that bar closes at 2am kyle frank nd i still wanted to drink nd frank offers the idea to drive into the city, cos his friend is having a party at this club. [he lures us with free booze nd free entry] so we say sure lets go! we get to the city about 3ish park the car near times square i believe..nd we walk to where this club is [after a potty break at a 24 hr mcdonalds]. i was so not dressed for this kinda club i looked like a backwards wholesome farm girl from like idaho compared to the ppl in this place lol but none the less the free entry was pretty awesome, save like 15 bucks. nd once we were inside there were some insanely hot men dancing on the bar.[to bad it was a gay bar lol] then the free booze started lol we hung out about an hour not even then decided to come back home cos we were exhausted nd not in party in the city mood..well we kinda went in this HUGE circle nd ended up right back where we started haha but after like 20 mins nd my VZnavigator david we were safely on the way back to jersey! yay gotta love walkin in the door at 630 in the morining haha

 

hmm so my first actually blog is all over the place. nd im sorry that im a horrible story teller lol not to mention its kinda random nd all over the place. well i promise to have something more relevant nd not so all over the place to read next time!

 

k bai! ♥</sup>