Friends are everything. The ones that you are close with are your glue and especially when you are away at college like I am, they become family. I treasure my friendships. This must be why it hurts me so badly to see that one of them is slowly falling apart. I'm unsure if she will ever come upon this blog but I really just need to get my feelings out. I can't find my journal so I figured this was the next best thing. Putting these words down make it seem even more real. But it's time for me to face it. What do you do when someone that you promised this would never happen to you guys it is now happening to. We have been best friends for 4 years but in the last couple of months its just starting to feel like it's not the same. I don't want this to happen, I would do anything to prevent it but I'm haunted by this feeling that I just cannot stop it. What are you supposed to do when both people know they are drifting away but the pieces just are not able to be fixed. Sad that at this moment we have had our doors closed on each other for the last 4hrs.

Friendships define a person. I'm losing a piece of what defines me as cheesy as that sounds. The only thing making this night any better is that after hearing about them over a year ago, I am now listening to Honor Society's cd on their myspace. It is literally giving me chills. Hoping that what I see happening to my friendship does not end up happening because I honestly do not know how I would handle it.

So many things I am interested in doing but where do I even begin?

How do you react when someone tells you you look like you belong in something that you really wanted but were never accepted into?

Stressed. This one simple word describes how my life has been daily for probably the last 3 months. I wrote earlier about how I feel lost with what I want to do with my life after college. I'm a junior in college and I honestly thought that by this point I would be headed in the direction of what I want to be doing with my life once I graduate. All summer and during the end of spring semester all I could think about was that I did not want to spend my life doing anything that has to do with politics(I am technically a political science major) and that I really just like seeing people happy.

For my whole life I have been a happy people person. There is nothing in this world I love seeing more than my family and friends being happy. I guess you could call me a fixer. I do not like to get in arguments and when there are fights I like them to be over as soon as possible. It just makes me sad that everyone is moving on with their lives and other than the fact that I like helping people and that I love music I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. How do you not let the feeling of uneasiness consume you? All summer all I could think about was that I have no life direction. Now don't get me wrong its not like I'm moping everywhere its just that it stresses me out and my family has also picked up on it.

For now I am switching to Interdisciplinary Studies. Hopefully this will turn out to be a good fit because basically I will be studying three different areas, and hopefully it will help me in figuring out what I want to do in the long run. The one thing I am sure of though is that I absolutely can't be sitting in a cubicle everyday. That is just not me, I am a complete people person. More and more I have been feeling the urge to do something with music. Now the only instrument I can play is the clarinet(thank you middle school) and although I love singing I do not have a good voice. So I would want to work somehow in the industry where I could use my creativity amongst other things. That part that stinks however is that my university offers absolutely nothing that would help me with this.

I went to an amazing two concerts in August and I honestly had not felt as happy all summer as I did at those two events. Music just makes me feel something that I can’t feel in any other way. It basically makes my heart happier as clichéd as that sounds. It is so much easier now that I have gotten these feelings off of my chest and have written them down, writing just makes everything a little better. Oh and the quote that is the title of this blog happened to be on a card at my school bookstore and I just really liked what it said.

So I just wrote like a really long entry but now I have to get ready to go to Red Hot and Boom which is a concert in Orlando, so when I get back I promise to rewrite what I had written before my internet conked out on me and I will make sure it gets posted!

So I'm kinda mad at myself because I had been promising myself that I would post a blog on here about how I spent my spring break in New Orleans. However, unfortunately right after break came like the last 3 or 4 weeks of school which to all of you college students out there, you know that time equals crunchtime. I made it through the agony of finals and last minute presentations which means it is SUMMER!!!! I was planning on spending all summer up at school but I soon realized that I really needed a break for a little bit. I had alot of stuff going on this semester so by the end I was pretty burnt out. Instead I'm gonna relax at home and take an online class and then go back up in June for the rest of summer.

I go to college about 3 1/2 to 4 hours driving distance away from home. And I love where I live, I love having time off and just getting home and relazing. I dont consider where I go to college to be my home because my heart at the moment still belongs in the city/town that I grew up in. It's technically a city but it seems so small to me, that I like to call it a town. As my friend and I got home this past week we were talking about how lucky we are that we were raised in this place. Its very safe and some people would say its a bubble. I've seen many different ways of life and so it really bothers me when people say I dont know anything about the world because of where I live. At this moment I would say my heart still belongs to this town and who knows when it will find a new home. I just like the feeling of knowing that I'm home.:) I also cant wait to hopefully find that feeling again once I graduate from college in the future and find somewhere else I belong. Do you think your heart can have more than one home?

Soooooooooo excited for this summer and I can't wait to see what it brings!! Oh and I still need to go buy my mothers day gift...oy.

I've never really thought about how much music overall affects me when I least expect it. Unfortunately I have not been to a concert since December which makes me sad cause I think concerts are an awesome way to just relax and really enjoy what you are experiencing. Right now Universal Studios has something going on called Mardi Gras where they have different performers come and sing. Luckily for me I love all types of music. So on Friday one of my best friends and I got to go hear Boys Like Girls perform. This was my second time seeing them and they were awesome!! After the concert though, I really started thinking about how even though I had loved their show, I felt more than that. Just being at a concert and soaking the music in actually made me really happy. Music is such a big part of my life, there are certain songs on my ipod that when I listen to them they just make me feel feelings that are incredible. I might be rambling but going to the concert on Friday just really showed me how happy music makes me and that going to a good concert can seriously put a smile on my face. :)

So I know I have not written on here in a while:( butttt things have been super crazy. However probably this weekend I will be writing a super long entry about an extremely meaningful experience that I had last week. Hope everyone is doing well:)

I feel like I don't even remember the past 2 weeks. Like my planner is the biggest mess(i don't know what I would do without that thing) and at times it makes me really happy and other times I just stare at it thinking there is not enough time in the day. I love being busy and being involved with things however there comes a point where you just want to lie down in your bed and read a good book. Last week I had 3 tests and every week since this semester began I've had piles and piles of hw. However I'm really excited because this weekend I will finally be able to escape from school and have a little break. And then in like 2 weeks its spring break!!! I am so excited for spring break and I'm not going on a cruise, instead I am going to be spending a week in New Orleans doing an alternative spring break which will continue helping with the rebuilding because things are still really bad over there. The last time I was in that area was the summer after Katrina so I am really hoping that things are at least a little better. Do you guys feel like time has been flying by lately?

P.s) I have been doing math hw for the last 3 hours and I have come to the conclusion that pandora radio is officially amazing. I love it because a)I cant get anything done without music in the background and b) I always find new artists and songs that I really like through it.

Hi Everyone,

My name is Ilysa and I am so excited that i have been given the opportunity to blog on this website. I feel like this is sort of an awkward first date so I decided it would be best to just dive right in and tell you a little bit about myself.

I love music, its what gets me through the best days and the hardest ones. That is why when I first found out about this website I was so excited cause it combined two of my fave things which is giving back to others, and having a place to talk about music and many other random things. Thank you Cassie for responding to my email and giving me a chance!

What I plan to do with my life probably won't involve music....I'm a political science major but like I said before i always have had an interest in it, and I have loved reading everyone's blogs on here. I'm probably just gonna be talking about random stuff on here but I am so excited about this opportunity.

Fun fact....I'm really scared of ducks. So i feel like I should be really tired right now cause I've been up since 9am and I went to an amusement park all day but I'm still wide awake. Hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep soon....cause unfortunately I have 3 tests and a quiz this week so I have a ton of studying to start doing tomorrow. Oh and random sidenote,I saw the movie He's Just Not That Into You yesterday and it is now definitely on my list of fave chick flicks,it was so good!! Well hope this was not that bad of a first date and I am looking forward to many more. :)