Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

Stressed. This one simple word describes how my life has been daily for probably the last 3 months. I wrote earlier about how I feel lost with what I want to do with my life after college. I'm a junior in college and I honestly thought that by this point I would be headed in the direction of what I want to be doing with my life once I graduate. All summer and during the end of spring semester all I could think about was that I did not want to spend my life doing anything that has to do with politics(I am technically a political science major) and that I really just like seeing people happy.

For my whole life I have been a happy people person. There is nothing in this world I love seeing more than my family and friends being happy. I guess you could call me a fixer. I do not like to get in arguments and when there are fights I like them to be over as soon as possible. It just makes me sad that everyone is moving on with their lives and other than the fact that I like helping people and that I love music I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. How do you not let the feeling of uneasiness consume you? All summer all I could think about was that I have no life direction. Now don't get me wrong its not like I'm moping everywhere its just that it stresses me out and my family has also picked up on it.

For now I am switching to Interdisciplinary Studies. Hopefully this will turn out to be a good fit because basically I will be studying three different areas, and hopefully it will help me in figuring out what I want to do in the long run. The one thing I am sure of though is that I absolutely can't be sitting in a cubicle everyday. That is just not me, I am a complete people person. More and more I have been feeling the urge to do something with music. Now the only instrument I can play is the clarinet(thank you middle school) and although I love singing I do not have a good voice. So I would want to work somehow in the industry where I could use my creativity amongst other things. That part that stinks however is that my university offers absolutely nothing that would help me with this.

I went to an amazing two concerts in August and I honestly had not felt as happy all summer as I did at those two events. Music just makes me feel something that I can’t feel in any other way. It basically makes my heart happier as clichéd as that sounds. It is so much easier now that I have gotten these feelings off of my chest and have written them down, writing just makes everything a little better. Oh and the quote that is the title of this blog happened to be on a card at my school bookstore and I just really liked what it said.