letting go, so something can begin

Okay, I know I said I wouldn't. I know I locked myself up and swore never to allow myself the opportunity to be put in that position again - a position I had been in many times before - but I don't think I'll ever stop giving second chances until I find someone who doesn't need one. What are you going to do when you go out tonight? What am I going to do when I go out tonight? I have my plans and I'm sure you have yours and we both have chance. We both have fate. Does fate take broken hearts along the way into consideration or just push through until the end result is apparant? Does fate take timing into consideration or just sit there shining in the night waiting for you both to be drawn to it?
Did you really just call me that? I know it's customary, but you haven't done it in a long time. A long, long time. I could check the date if you wish to wait a minute. I surely enjoyed hearing it from strangers at least on that bitter cold rainy day when I walked alone on the street's edge to return my most conveinent way to you. I took it back to avoid my doing anything too drastic.

Does this song really need to come next? Excuse me while I interrupt my playlist.
I'm in control, or at least I'm going to let you think I am. 2009 is only 27 days away. Sixty days or so in I may give it another whirl, but I'll probably fall again far before that.

the end is where you never hope you say 'i could of done it better'

I never know when to give up. I never know if I'm hanging on too long, or I let go too early. I guess this is growing up.