but you know me, i like being all alone, and keeping you all alone

I only need three of you right now. My goal is to make you need me as much as I need you. You need me now, but you need to know you'll need me more later. You needed me the other night, and I can make the future worth your while for you, your boys, your dreams and your heart(s). You know you need someone, and that someone is me. I can't stop thinking about you. You keep me hopeful. Stop sending me blatant lyrics. I don't want to be hand-fed your heart. Maybe I need you too. Maybe I just need something and it happens to be you. Maybe I'll need you in three months. I haven't decided to accept your inviation or not yet, but I'm hoping I don't give up on hope and that I can keep myself from asking for advice that I used to just be able to rebel against, but started considering at some point. I hate it when people can't make decisions. I don't want to be like any of you. Tell me you need me and make it easy on me.
Please stop ruining my treasures. Can we just keep them for examination and shit-talking in my head. I'll shut my mouth if I need to - I promise.

It's time for the set up. I'm ready to call tails.

I'm trying not to let it fade and never know if the escape is what I need or if it will be my downfall.
one. two. three. i think i'll be happy.