ruby slippers

I'm happy. I really am, but I feel so saturated with everyone else's problems right now that I find it difficult to focus.
I thought I had almost lost it and lost all of you, then after taking a break of my own, I revisited your hiding places and found a treasure trove of diamond studded words that i can't stop staring at in amazement. thank you for coming back to me. it's not fun crying on the couch.

i see myself changing for you. and you. and you get let me be the best me i can be and that makes me happy. wish you were attainable.

it snowed a lot today and the harder it came down, the more it reminded me of you. i'm trying to get this mix just right. i have to tell you a story this way because telling you the other side of a story you've been a part of for a year isn't as easy to do outright. i'm becoming accustomed to the idea of you. i'm not even sure what that idea is.

i've become bored with you because others take the fun out of the game i never even decided if i wanted to win or not. you're simply something to daydream about when the unattainable and long-distance take the toll on my emotions. i haven't opened the blinds in a few days. ok, i did temporarily readjust my plans this morning, but you put a stop to that. let's run into each other sometime soon.

it's funny i'm trying to capture the hearts of all of you. you're already too in love with the music to even have room for anything tangible. you're like me. i wonder what i'll listen to if i ever fall in love. will drowning in bittersweet lyrics be a thing of the past or morph into some sort of mental photo album that i can still appreciate? i never want it to go away and if i can ever feel something as strong in a person that i feel in a song i'll know i've found what i've been looking for. i think its a feeling. i think there's a path to keeping it, but i believe in soul mates. i believe in seeing someone for the first time and saying in 20 years that you knew from the beginning.

don't drop your pen(s)...

xo