All Time Dream

Every time I watch shows that feature the life story of a celebrity, I'm never bored. I'm stuck to it until the episode ends. I feel as if I'm a opened to a new world where not everything is so glamorous at all.

Today's episode was about Katy Perry. When I first heard about "I Kissed A Girl", I knew Katy was gonna be a superstar. She had this typical pop star look with great looks, great voice, and great body. I thought she was such a lucky girl who got success overnight.

As I went through the episode, I thought wrong. Like other successful artists in today's era, she first got the taste of a rocky road with constant rejections, hopelessness, and to the point where people keep telling you to give up. It took her years to build up the career she has now. There was more to the typical pop star look she had. She cames out consistently with her work. Her talents reflect her hard work, determination, personality, and how creative she is as an artist.

Then I wondered if I'll be able to taste that feeling. I've never really opened up about what I dream to be because to most, it's cheesy. What I'm expected to do is to be a businesswoman. Ever since I was a little kid, all I wanted was to perform. I first wanted to be a singer. While I watch MTV, I'd take the remote and use it as a microphone as I sing along with the songs playing in front of me. I wrote songs, imagined what my life would be as an artist, named my albums, created a rebellious image like Ashlee Simpson, and made so many dreams.

Now that I'm sixteen, I want to be a versatile actress. Not just an ordinary actress in chick films but an actress who takes any role in all kinds of movies, TV shows, and plays. I want to be in drama, comedy, horror, musical, and all kinds! Because of my drama club in high school, I've learned to love everything in acting: nerve-wracking auditions, late afternoon rehearsals, and the superb excitement of knowing your audience loves the show.

I'd rather be an actress than a singer. A real singer writes her own songs, makes the music, and oversees the whole production. In real life, I love to sing but I haven't inclined myself to real music. I only know how to control the basics of piano and guitar, I'm not a good lyricist/rhymist, and I freak out when I'm instructed to compose and read musical notes.

As an actress, you can shut off who you really are and start a new persona once the directors says 'action!'. You get to feel and experience the life of someone else's shoes. The script doesn't make the character instantly but the emotions and gestures you project defines that role. I can place my real emotions through acting without hurting anyone around me. And as you act, you're free to express what you think can help improve the scene.

I remembered telling myself that by the age fifteen I should be famous worldwide. Now that just makes me laugh. I haven't reached local media but at least I left high school knowing I've entertained the faculty and students. That's enough for me... now.

Of course I want to reach the top. I want to go locally and even internationally - hello Hollywood! I know I may not be able to reach that now because my studies is my priority. But joining theater groups in college won't stop me. At least I'll still be able to hone my skills.

Cheers to dreams!