2008 perhaps

2008 has been a weird year. honestly it is a year i never could have imagined, good or bad.

i got dumped on dec 31 of 2007 around midnight. i basically knew from then on this year would be a winner. although to be fair i learned more this year than i have in a long time about myself, my friends, and about life in general.

this year, i made some incredible friends. honestly friends that taught me more about myself than in a long time. i also lost some friends too, through distace, time, or death.

i miss steph a lot, somedays are so much harder than other days but shes always in the back of my mind. her birthday just passed and it was tough for us all. it was good to know though that she wouldnt want it to be tough for us. she was the life of any party so now someone else just has to step up.

i shipped merch this year. so much merch i basically am buried under it. i am not complaining, just stating. the jonas brothers are enormous. its insane to think about sometimes. i remember shipping the first ever order out in this tiny room in the back of the old bookstore and driving it to the post office and then it grew to like maybe 100 orders a day would get mailed out. then we moved it to another spot and would bring like a couple hundred orders a day and now i have shipped the 100000 order and we go to the post office about 3 times a day. its incredible. im proud. im glad. and im always humbled.

its exciting also to be starting it with honor society and article a. its always exciting to see the progression of a new company and im glad to be on board.

i also toured. i like touring. i love demi lovato, she was awesome to work for. of course honor society is wonderful as well and jonas too. its been a good time.

this year i have grown. i am stronger in myself and always make sure to speak up when i am truly bothered by something. its tough to know where lines are drawn though in certain instances. i am still learning about myself and what i like and dislike. what i want to be and what i want in friends. all i know is i like to be myself and the number 1 quality i like in friends is that they are themselves too. maybe im growing up and learning i dont need a ton of friends, but rather i just need friends that are like that. i'm ready to be on my own. work on my own. live on my own. be my own person.

maybe thats what 2009 is going to be. transition. i know i can get a great job on a tour and i am going to. i dont care what i do but i am doing it. i know i work harder than anyone else and i am awesome at what i can do. i am not going to let people hold me back. i am young and this is the time i need to set up a good foundation for myself.

oh yeah, and i listened to a lot of good music. i still go to best buy every week and buy like 4 cds and if i could make a list of all the good cds i bought this year i would. although i have no clue what all i bought. all i know is i newly started listening to the matches (thanks merch) and it blows my mind everytime and i love the new aar cd.

this was just a whole lot of rambling. half recounting. quarter life to come. and a pile of random nonsense.

but to sum it all up. be funny. be yourself. then be my friend.