life cycles

life is interesting all the time. i rarely stop to think about it except when i am sitting with an empty blog space and a craving to write.

ya know when you are younger you grow up with a best friend? and then you get to middle school and you have a best friend, and then high school theres a best friend, and then you go to the college and make another. through all this time you have all these "best friends" but who is to say which is the best? i mean i can list right now like 15 people that at some point in my life i called a best friend.

now i am not saying that they never were or are my best friends. its just crazy how life takes you for this ride sometimes. like i spent my whole childhood hanging out with paul. we grew up together, our parents babysat us on alternating days, i cut his hair (and my own), we did all that cute best friend boy girl garbage and it was awesome. but seriously i never see paul now. thats not to say i dont still love him and he wasnt my best friend but he's not anymore since i havent seen him in like 5 years probably.

i have a million stories like that about friends i had for years at a time and now i rarely see anymore. im not complaining or anything like that i think im more thinking i am glad that in each friendship i got the most out of it that is possible.

each person entered and left my life for certain reasons and i am thankful for them all. everyone should be thankful for the friends: past, present, and future.

life cycles. its like eating macaroni and cheese everyday as a kid and then growing sick of it, although for myself i still have yet to grow sick of it. or putting too much syrup on your pancakes and now the taste grosses you out a bit. maybe what im thinking is thats its good not to overwhelm a good thing because it could eventually turn back on you. just take everything a step at a time and live for the moments granted to you.

my brain is sorta chaotic sometimes in the places it takes me, but i like bringing people along for the journey sometimes.