Summer Love meets Summer End

Last Summer I regrouped with some old friends from elementary school. Amungst them were some new faces. One of these that I'll never ever forget. His name was *Roy* (not his real name) The first day I met him I knew we had to be best friends. Was it his style? His personality? I had no idea... and I still don't. But over last year and this year he has become the best friend I've ever had. We've shared so many memories together. Like the times we went camping. Also, he's influenced me to do the things I love to do, simply because I love to do them.  There was even a time where I was seriously considering dropping out of school, because even though I was doing pretty well, I still wasn't happy because everyone else seemed to be so much better. Then he told me things like "Do it because you want to." and "Don''t get so upset, there will always be someone out there who's better."

Then, about two weeks ago over spring break, which we had spent nearly every night together, he asked me if I wanted to go camping again so I did, even though I was sick.

That night was like a movie!

There I was laying in our tent with everyone else outside, because I was still feeling "Sick" (I was actually extremley hung over). He came into the tent. We wrestled for a bit ( I had the bruises to prove), and then he held me in his arms and cried saying he'd never hurt me. I smiled and said it was okay. So then we laid down, then started snuggling. He sighed and said "God, you're so..." he couldn't even finish the sentance. This was followed by "I feel like I don't even know you, but I like you so much."

I laughed when he asked me for my life story. I told him I was bullied at a private elementary school because I was ugly. He told me I wasn't. I told him I haven't done much of anything that normal people our age have.

He said, "Like What?

I said, "It's too embarassing."

He said, "Your first time getting drunk?"

I laughed, "Um, last night was like the 50th."

He smiled, "Your frist hangover?"

I laughed, "I still am."

Then he said it, "Your first kiss?"

I smiled bitterly, "I wish I could say I have."

Then he took me into his arms and asked me why. I told him there was a reason I had braces and that I was witn no exaduration the ugliest girl in my elementary school. A moment of silence followed our laughter.

Then he said, "Can I kiss you?"

I smiled and replied "Yes."

The rest after that was more and more kissing, hugging, and snuggling. We then fell asleep in eachother's arms as we had  times before, ending a perfect night.

Now, after all that we are facing a huge problem. We can never be together because one: our friends dispise it. And two: he is leaving for the east coast this summer as I am for the west coast. We both decided that we like eachother, but we don't want to, and that this is the thing that tears friendships apart... just like it has to ours.

He was the best friend I have EVER had, and I cared about him more that I have EVER cared about anything in my entire life. It wouldn't matter if he lost it all... I'd still care.

One quote that will always stay with me was another mark he left that night. We were both into a conversation about being so scared of other people and being shy. Then, he said "Don't ever be afriad of anything, because there is nothing you'll never get out of."

-K.