Live young, Die fast.

This thanksgiving was overshadowed somewhat by the death of a highschool classmate of mine.  He took his life and in the process left many people behind hurting and wondering why.  A few of my good friends took it really hard.  I hope that for whatever the reason he decided to exit early, he has finally found some peace.

Live young, Die fast.  I love this lyric from Alkaline trio, because if not taken literally, it's really beautiful. 
I want to live young for the rest of my life.  I feel like there's some sort of magic to childhood and we should all try to hold on to it as long as possible.  I miss the little things in my past, like feeling like the week leading up to christmas is the slowest torture ever and then not being able to sleep christmas eve, because i'm so excited for christmas morning. or having those awkward 7th grade dances where girls are on one side of the room and boys on the other for the first hour and then finally you work up the courage to go ask someone to dance.  i miss that!  I want to live as young as i can for as long as i can. 

Graduation for me is fast approaching, and right now it feels like i have the world at my feet.  Like i can do anything I want, there's dozens of paths.  I'm both excited and terrified.  I don't want to choose a job and get stuck in it because it's comfortable, but spend my life hating what i do.  I also don't want to be stuck paying my school loans off forever because I chose a job that i like, but that pays horribly.  I have no idea what i'm going to do next month when i get that diploma.  But, even with all that fear, I want to hang on to this moment and this feeling forever, because it's amazing to think that right now the sky is the limit, I can do or be almost anything.  It's amazing.