i'm spinning out of control...out of control

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I dont understand what you want from me.
'cause I dont know if I should trust you
or all of the things you've said to me.
and I may never know the answer to this endless mystery.

I recently heard this song again for the first time in a longg while.  It pretty much accurately describes where i'm at in my life at this moment in time. I'm graduating soon and i'm definitely feeling the pressure of having to find a job that will allow me to make enough money to pay off my school loans, but while listening to this song, I also was able to take a step back and remember a really great time in my life. 

It's amazing how a song can literally bring you back to a moment in time as if it happened just yesterday.  I first heard of hoobastank thanks to a mountain dew ad which featured their song crawling in the dark...immediately i was hooked.  Partially because i heard the song every time i was at work...at the local movie theater, which i had recently started.  A bunch of my co workers were going to the show and invited me to go along.  It was amazing.  Hoobastank put on a great show along with greenwheel.  I had such a blast, because I was 16 years old and was at my first unsupervised show at Starland Ballroom. 

I fell into a mosh pit and lost my friends in the crowd, but i had the time of my life.  Not to mention I got the chance to hang out with a coworker of mine who gave me butterflies in my stomach the day i was introduced to him at work.  7 years later the butterflies have long been gone, but i've become very close friends with that same guy, partially due to hanging out with him that night.  Funny how life works out like that.  I am lucky enough to still talk to several of the people that went to see Hoobastank on that night so long ago.  It is an experience I will never forget, and I can't help but smile when I hear Hoobastank, because it always brings me back to that moment in my life....back when the only things i had on my mind were field hockey, studying for the SAT's and that boy who gave me butterflies.

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