2010 YOU'RE LETTING ME DOWN.

So much for a great new year!  Nothing good has come of it so far except for knowing I'll be living off campus come the middle of May.  Other than that, I've been given bad news time and time again.

I just found out about an hour ago or so that my friend's father passed away.  The worst part is that my friend is in California living his dream while the rest of his family is at home in Jersey.  Life is so unpredictable.  So short.  It's filled with a lot of grief, a lot of pain, a lot of tears and a lot of heartache.

With all of this bad, I know there is some good too.  There is love, smiles, laughter, fond memories, but it seems as though the bad always outweighs the good.

My prayers are with him and his family.  I can only hope that they will get through this tough time.  

2010 please turn around and be something better than this.  I really cannot handle hearing about another friend's relative passing, or one of my own or just a friend.  Please, give me some hope that life isn't all bad.  I'm starting to feel that's all it is.  

I know I shouldn't since I'm 19 going on 20 in June and I have so much life left to live, but do I really?  It seems as though each person I know; a lot or a little is gone within the blink of an eye.  I could be next for all I know.  

I appreciate life.  I do, but it's been filled with so much pain, struggle, grief, heartache and hurt lately that I'm not enjoying it so much.

-Melissa