To Blog or Not to Blog

Hmmm so I always feel wierd about blogging about personal stuff... I mean people don't really want to hear me ramble about my pathetic life... but I figure... 

a. blogging is a good venting mechanism.....just like journaling!

and 

b. it's for charity right???

so here is my random personal blog that probably won't make sense to anyone but will feel good to say...or write that is...

What do you do when all you want to do is help someone but you don't know how?  We all can just try to be the best people that we can but it's hard when you realize that sometimes forcing your help only hurts.  

We can try to love but sometimes we just have to let go.  

So I'm giving it up and letting it go.  The control freak in me is freaking out but I suppose that's a good thing.  All I can do is all I can do and that's all I can ask of others.  

I have so much to be thankful for so I will turn my thoughts to that and try not to grumble about the little things that consume my mind.  I've always been a worrier and that probably won't ever change. 

I know I'm being taken care of.  It's in my nature to try to take care of everyone and always be a people pleaser.  That never works out quite the way I hoped!  So for now I will try to fix myself and stop trying to fix everyone else... Wish me luck!! 

love, (or at least trying to!)

ruthie