Lately, I have been wondering which of the people in my life will still be around or important to me in five years. I think back to high school and how some of the friends I had or the girls I dated don't mean anything to me. I find myself unable to remember experiences we shared, yet I know they were good ones. Does that make me a bad person? People I spent years with have now become just faces in yearbooks.

 A friend of mine once told me that she was afraid she would miss someone important that she was supposed to meet. And I guess I'm scared that she might be right. What if that's the way the world worked? And you had to try and gauge the value of a friend as soon as you met them. What a cruel world we live in.

brendan
(as a vessel for)
Since Forever

So, it seems that we are long overdue for a second blog. I have been searching for words to write that would mean something to someone other than me, but I find that when I write I tend to be more than a little self-centered. I have this notion in my head that I should keep this blog written solely about us as a band, but I find that hard when I have thoughts/ideas/feelings that don't correspond to the band as a whole that I want to write about. Maybe I should start another blog for myself...or a journal...or just learn how to keep things to myself. (laugh)

Anyways, all of us are still extremely stressed (Jade being at the top), but tomorrow we get to go up to Illinois and Indiana for a weekend and we are all looking forward to that. There is a freedom in our travels that is really quite unlike anything I have ever experienced. Being in a van with four of my closest friends for hours on end seeing places we've never seen is an experience with which I have fallen completely in love. It's  so hard for me to convey, but the joy I get meeting new people through this band rivals any happiness I would find otherwise. There is an inexplicable energy that overtakes each of us when we get opportunities to meet new people. Man, I am sounding super cheesy right about now. I'm just so excited for this weekend because it's been awhile since we've been out on the road and we all miss it desperately.

I suppose this is a super lame second blog, but it's two paragraphs to read that you didn't have previously, so there you go.

Think of the Swayze family and we'll talk to you soon.

brendan
(as a vessel for)
Since Forever

Like the title says, this is it. The first blog from Since Forever. This is Brendan speaking and I anticipate it will mostly be me here. I hope that's not a deterrent, but when the gifts were given, it came down to me getting this because I think I wanted it the most. I used to blog quite frequently (I deleted them, don't go looking) and I sort of missed this type of therapy.

Now that the introductions are done, I don't know where to begin...(laugh)

I guess you'll have to forgive me if there isn't anything too deep or relatable in this first blog, but then again, it's sort of my right because this is our introduction. I guess I'll just give you, the proverbial and, as of now, nonexistent reader, some insight into our lives at this exact moment.

For us, as a band and as individuals, this is a crazy point in our lives. As individuals, we have all sacrificed jobs and school and probably some relationships for this band. That's not a complaint, just a truthful statement. It's just that we have never been in a situation like this. It's a jumping off point.  Total submersion. We are stressed and overjoyed and worried almost daily with all that we have to do to make this work. (I can't imagine how Jade feels [laugh])

I know this is short, but I'm getting my wings back so cut me some slack. I guess I'll leave you with this sentiment: The future is so uncertain for us...and we'd have it no other way.

brendan
(as a vessel for)
Since Forever